DECEMBER 31st, 1992
I need a new pen. Today is cleaning day. I may go to Marion's at 1:00.
DECEMBER 31st, 1993
Me and the "Fam" went to see "Mrs. Doubtfire". It was funny. Hopefully, GIRL, BOY, BOY and I will get together on Sunday. I found out that you can only do 1 thing for the talent show. BOY obviously loves "A Little Fall of Rain", but I love "On My Own". I could pretend I don't have any "Rain" music. (Nicole's book has it). Or maybe he won't go through with it. I don't want to hurt his feelings, I love "Fall of Rain" to! But I'm more comfortable with "On My Own."
December 31, 2010
December 25, 2010
DECEMBER 25th, 1993
DECEMBER 25th, 1993
Christmas! I got a tape deck, camera, Ouija board, Jurassic Park game, Home Alone II, Andrew Lloyd Webber CD, underwear, etc. Aunt Vicki loaned me her skis for Ski Club. Again, all the McCafferty's were together.
Christmas! I got a tape deck, camera, Ouija board, Jurassic Park game, Home Alone II, Andrew Lloyd Webber CD, underwear, etc. Aunt Vicki loaned me her skis for Ski Club. Again, all the McCafferty's were together.
December 24, 2010
DECEMBER 24th, 1993
DECEMBER 24th, 1993
Christmas Eve. We had Denny's with Holly, Alison Thompson and Dolf Kamper.
Later, at Holly's, Aimee gave us a 3-D dolphin picture. (the ones you stare at) Chris Lee (Alison's beau) came over and Dolf. And they all exchanged 5 million gifts.
Later still we went to Aunt Kay's. (and partyied with the family)
Christmas Eve. We had Denny's with Holly, Alison Thompson and Dolf Kamper.
Later, at Holly's, Aimee gave us a 3-D dolphin picture. (the ones you stare at) Chris Lee (Alison's beau) came over and Dolf. And they all exchanged 5 million gifts.
Later still we went to Aunt Kay's. (and partyied with the family)
December 23, 2010
DECEMBER 23rd, 1993, 1998, 2003
DECEMBER 23rd, 1993
Still at Aunt Kay's. We cleaned her small apartment, wrapped gifts and went downtown. We shopped and ate at the Galleria and Tower City. At the tower I saw Mr. Schellentrager. I didn't approach him, thinking I wouldn't be remembered. Gosh, I miss 8th grade.
Sometimes I have strong feelings about people and things. Like I'll walk into a room and feel peoples emotions. Is this just observance or actual ESP?
Tomorrow we go to the traditional Holly Stone birthday Denny's breakfast. We're almost family.
DECEMBER 23rd, 1998
Last night, when I talked to BOYFRIEND 2, he told me how Michelle and his best friend were hooking up. I knew he was jealous and I tried my best to make it comfortable for him to admit it. He just kept saying it was cool. I was acting (I thought) pretty normal - going off on my usual silly tangents about crazy, silly things. He didn't talk much. He said I was acting funny. I didn't think so, but I made the excuse that I felt weird here. It's only been a couple of days! Are we even gonna make it through this vacation? I should have realized his feelings are very flighty. I told him if I could just see him and hug him, he'd know it was the same Jess. At least I'll be ready if he starts to gradually pull away. I knew it would happen. I'm afraid to talk to him. I don't want to push him away like I feel I'm doing.
I thought I saw BOY delivering pizzas with a shaved head today while I was at Drug Mart. I think he recognized me, but I ignored him. I have Heather's car now and no place to go. I feel so pent-up. I feel helpless. It's too soon for BOYFRIEND 2 and I to be apart. His feelings for Michelle are still too close. Oh well. If I lose him, I really think I could win him back in BG. I mean, he loves me! Ahh, but he's loved a lot of girls...
I visit the Baywatch and the Playboy Search webpages a lot. I think the quickest way to fame for me would be through Baywatch. I just need to get blonder. Maybe Heather will want to spend summer break in California and take me with her.
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve at Uncle Nick's, my favorite family day of the year. We have a great feast of pierogies and mushrooms and fish a ton of other things. I can't wait.
I miss BG. I miss being with BOYFRIEND 2. I want to go to California.
DECEMBER 23rd, 2003
Last night was the best time I've ever had with BOYFRIEND 4. You know how I always go on and on listing all the nice things he says to me, all the things that make me happy? Well, there's not enough room in this journal for all the stuff he said last night.
But he assures me LA is not in his future. I still refuse to believe I'll never see him again. He is convinced I'll be moving on to the first available Hollywood Hunk. I tried to let him know that I will not be able to forget him. He's my puzzle piece. We fit together. Maybe it'll take a few years to convince him. I'll wait. I told him if he ever thought of marrying someone else to call me first. Come date me for a week, give me one last chance.
Tonight made me realize how much I truly care about him. I'm scared.
Still at Aunt Kay's. We cleaned her small apartment, wrapped gifts and went downtown. We shopped and ate at the Galleria and Tower City. At the tower I saw Mr. Schellentrager. I didn't approach him, thinking I wouldn't be remembered. Gosh, I miss 8th grade.
Sometimes I have strong feelings about people and things. Like I'll walk into a room and feel peoples emotions. Is this just observance or actual ESP?
Tomorrow we go to the traditional Holly Stone birthday Denny's breakfast. We're almost family.
DECEMBER 23rd, 1998
Last night, when I talked to BOYFRIEND 2, he told me how Michelle and his best friend were hooking up. I knew he was jealous and I tried my best to make it comfortable for him to admit it. He just kept saying it was cool. I was acting (I thought) pretty normal - going off on my usual silly tangents about crazy, silly things. He didn't talk much. He said I was acting funny. I didn't think so, but I made the excuse that I felt weird here. It's only been a couple of days! Are we even gonna make it through this vacation? I should have realized his feelings are very flighty. I told him if I could just see him and hug him, he'd know it was the same Jess. At least I'll be ready if he starts to gradually pull away. I knew it would happen. I'm afraid to talk to him. I don't want to push him away like I feel I'm doing.
I thought I saw BOY delivering pizzas with a shaved head today while I was at Drug Mart. I think he recognized me, but I ignored him. I have Heather's car now and no place to go. I feel so pent-up. I feel helpless. It's too soon for BOYFRIEND 2 and I to be apart. His feelings for Michelle are still too close. Oh well. If I lose him, I really think I could win him back in BG. I mean, he loves me! Ahh, but he's loved a lot of girls...
I visit the Baywatch and the Playboy Search webpages a lot. I think the quickest way to fame for me would be through Baywatch. I just need to get blonder. Maybe Heather will want to spend summer break in California and take me with her.
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve at Uncle Nick's, my favorite family day of the year. We have a great feast of pierogies and mushrooms and fish a ton of other things. I can't wait.
I miss BG. I miss being with BOYFRIEND 2. I want to go to California.
DECEMBER 23rd, 2003
Last night was the best time I've ever had with BOYFRIEND 4. You know how I always go on and on listing all the nice things he says to me, all the things that make me happy? Well, there's not enough room in this journal for all the stuff he said last night.
But he assures me LA is not in his future. I still refuse to believe I'll never see him again. He is convinced I'll be moving on to the first available Hollywood Hunk. I tried to let him know that I will not be able to forget him. He's my puzzle piece. We fit together. Maybe it'll take a few years to convince him. I'll wait. I told him if he ever thought of marrying someone else to call me first. Come date me for a week, give me one last chance.
Tonight made me realize how much I truly care about him. I'm scared.
December 22, 2010
DECEMBER 22nd, 1992, 1993
DECEMBER 22nd, 1992
Today I went to the skating party at United Skates of America. When they had the screaming contest, the boys got in trouble for screaming "Pizza Hut!"
I filled out a song request from "To Kell Lee Saurus from your Skatey-Poo, I love the way you swing your tail," The Hokey Pokey.
I called the Skatesaurus a "green carpet sample."
DECEMBER 22nd, 1993
Went to Martin's. Watched the Simpson Halloween Special IV on tape. Tonight Kath and I sleepover Aunt Kay's.
Sometimes I wonder if my fellow classmates are even the least bit intelligent. Judging from their speech and actions, I don't think they even have a smart thought. It's not like me to write this deeply, but I sure do think deep. I take time to comprehend things. I can never picture GIRL or GIRL doing this. But maybe they do. People don't actually think of me as a complex mind because I never show it. Whenever I state a scientific fact or deep thought, they laugh and think of it as one of my funny jokes. Just a thought for the day.
One more question. Does this "hobby" or "skill" I have of being scientifically and psychologically thoughtful make me intelligent? If not, what does? And why is Ryan in all the smart classes if he hasn't shown one sign of intelligence?
Geez. Christmas is only 2 days away and I haven't even thought about it! My thoughts are consumed with one thing: BOY.
Holly Stone will be 16 on Friday. She doesn't seem what I thought 16 would be. I'm 15. I thought that sometime (like when I'm asleep) between 15 + 16 there's a huge gap, that I jump ahead to ultimate maturity in one day. When I was 13, I thought I'd be mature at 15. I'm 15 now. I don't think I'm mature at all. I wonder when I will mature. Good thing BOY's just as immature as me. We could be twins.
FRIENDS:
1. Tessa Kinney
2. Emily Adams
3. Michelle Gaspar
4. Jocelyn Holt
5. Julie Leo
6. Holly Gindlesperger
BOYS I LIKE:
1. Craig Meland
2. Andy Demian
3. Ryan Rinaldo
Everyone hates BOY, but he's so popular. I don't know why, but I feel a special connection with him. He makes fun of me and I proclaim my hate for him publicly. But I like him. Maybe it's cause I can read his mind or vice versa, or maybe it's cause we're the same. Because he's an insensitive jerk, people (and teachers) don't recognize his smarts. Because I'm a silly, funny class clown, no one recognizes my smarts or seriousness. Does he think of me? Is he really the same? I mean, does he wonder what I think like I wonder what he feels?
I've been branded a class clown for life, I guess. We're a self-sufficient community, the class of '97. Each person supplies a need. I'm just there to make people laugh, that's my job. BOY is the kid you love to hate. And although we hate each other (the class of '97) is a big family. We've been together for 15 years. We know each other. When someone new comes into the family, it may take awhile to accept them and they will never be a part of the original class. I feel proud when someone new comes, I don't know exactly why, either. But I'm proud to be part of the original Olmsted Falls class family.
I feel something is going to happen between me and BOY, but not in the near future and not at Ski Club. I don't think it's a romantic encounter, either.
At Aunt Kay's, we trimmed her tree. All I could think of was BOY, BOY, BOY.
DECEMBER 22nd, 1994
On Tues. Aunt Kathleen and Matt came out from Arizona. Today we went to Tower City. We saw Corey at his job as Raggedy Ann. So far this vacation is pretty boring. BOY is constantly on my mind, but at least I'm not pining for him. (Well maybe I am...a little.)
Today I went to the skating party at United Skates of America. When they had the screaming contest, the boys got in trouble for screaming "Pizza Hut!"
I filled out a song request from "To Kell Lee Saurus from your Skatey-Poo, I love the way you swing your tail," The Hokey Pokey.
I called the Skatesaurus a "green carpet sample."
DECEMBER 22nd, 1993
Went to Martin's. Watched the Simpson Halloween Special IV on tape. Tonight Kath and I sleepover Aunt Kay's.
Sometimes I wonder if my fellow classmates are even the least bit intelligent. Judging from their speech and actions, I don't think they even have a smart thought. It's not like me to write this deeply, but I sure do think deep. I take time to comprehend things. I can never picture GIRL or GIRL doing this. But maybe they do. People don't actually think of me as a complex mind because I never show it. Whenever I state a scientific fact or deep thought, they laugh and think of it as one of my funny jokes. Just a thought for the day.
One more question. Does this "hobby" or "skill" I have of being scientifically and psychologically thoughtful make me intelligent? If not, what does? And why is Ryan in all the smart classes if he hasn't shown one sign of intelligence?
Geez. Christmas is only 2 days away and I haven't even thought about it! My thoughts are consumed with one thing: BOY.
Holly Stone will be 16 on Friday. She doesn't seem what I thought 16 would be. I'm 15. I thought that sometime (like when I'm asleep) between 15 + 16 there's a huge gap, that I jump ahead to ultimate maturity in one day. When I was 13, I thought I'd be mature at 15. I'm 15 now. I don't think I'm mature at all. I wonder when I will mature. Good thing BOY's just as immature as me. We could be twins.
FRIENDS:
1. Tessa Kinney
2. Emily Adams
3. Michelle Gaspar
4. Jocelyn Holt
5. Julie Leo
6. Holly Gindlesperger
BOYS I LIKE:
1. Craig Meland
2. Andy Demian
3. Ryan Rinaldo
Everyone hates BOY, but he's so popular. I don't know why, but I feel a special connection with him. He makes fun of me and I proclaim my hate for him publicly. But I like him. Maybe it's cause I can read his mind or vice versa, or maybe it's cause we're the same. Because he's an insensitive jerk, people (and teachers) don't recognize his smarts. Because I'm a silly, funny class clown, no one recognizes my smarts or seriousness. Does he think of me? Is he really the same? I mean, does he wonder what I think like I wonder what he feels?
I've been branded a class clown for life, I guess. We're a self-sufficient community, the class of '97. Each person supplies a need. I'm just there to make people laugh, that's my job. BOY is the kid you love to hate. And although we hate each other (the class of '97) is a big family. We've been together for 15 years. We know each other. When someone new comes into the family, it may take awhile to accept them and they will never be a part of the original class. I feel proud when someone new comes, I don't know exactly why, either. But I'm proud to be part of the original Olmsted Falls class family.
I feel something is going to happen between me and BOY, but not in the near future and not at Ski Club. I don't think it's a romantic encounter, either.
At Aunt Kay's, we trimmed her tree. All I could think of was BOY, BOY, BOY.
DECEMBER 22nd, 1994
On Tues. Aunt Kathleen and Matt came out from Arizona. Today we went to Tower City. We saw Corey at his job as Raggedy Ann. So far this vacation is pretty boring. BOY is constantly on my mind, but at least I'm not pining for him. (Well maybe I am...a little.)
December 21, 2010
DECEMBER 21st, 1992, 1993
DECEMBER 21st, 1992
Today we leave. 1 hr. in a car, 2 hrs. waiting in an airport, and 4 hrs. on a plane. I will not miss Florida. No dolphins, stressful deadlines, and fattening foods. I hope I never come back.
I'll miss my new friends. Kate, Jeff (I developed a crush on Jeff, too late now. Kate liked him too), Elmo (Joanna), Heather, Mr. Chatterbox (I never learned his name), Sasha + Kasi our counselors. But I can't wait to see my old friends.
DECEMBER 21st, 1993
Still nothing to do. It's snowing hard and sticking. I'm thinking about BOY and only BOY.
Well, actually I'm listening to the tape Christina Ferrie and I made last year. I also found the "Bonjour" shirt that she gave me. I love that shirt. It's awesome. I kinda miss Christina. We still say hi every now and then. I knew this was going to happen. Because we didn't have any classes together. It's weird. At the beginning of this book we were best friends. Now I guess GIRL is.
I guess Masquers is the biggest effect on my 9th grade year. I got in the play. I met BOY, Ben, Shannon, Ryan Thomas, Jason Skinner, Lesley Yoder, Brad and all them. Masquers is my biggest social activity this year. Toronto was the best. I miss it. I hope BOY and I can go next year.
This time last year I was just becoming friends with Christina, and on my way to Florida.
Today we leave. 1 hr. in a car, 2 hrs. waiting in an airport, and 4 hrs. on a plane. I will not miss Florida. No dolphins, stressful deadlines, and fattening foods. I hope I never come back.
I'll miss my new friends. Kate, Jeff (I developed a crush on Jeff, too late now. Kate liked him too), Elmo (Joanna), Heather, Mr. Chatterbox (I never learned his name), Sasha + Kasi our counselors. But I can't wait to see my old friends.
DECEMBER 21st, 1993
Still nothing to do. It's snowing hard and sticking. I'm thinking about BOY and only BOY.
Well, actually I'm listening to the tape Christina Ferrie and I made last year. I also found the "Bonjour" shirt that she gave me. I love that shirt. It's awesome. I kinda miss Christina. We still say hi every now and then. I knew this was going to happen. Because we didn't have any classes together. It's weird. At the beginning of this book we were best friends. Now I guess GIRL is.
I guess Masquers is the biggest effect on my 9th grade year. I got in the play. I met BOY, Ben, Shannon, Ryan Thomas, Jason Skinner, Lesley Yoder, Brad and all them. Masquers is my biggest social activity this year. Toronto was the best. I miss it. I hope BOY and I can go next year.
This time last year I was just becoming friends with Christina, and on my way to Florida.
December 20, 2010
DECEMBER 20th, 1992, 1993
DECEMBER 20th, 1992
Today, I got on the wrong tender at Salt Cay and everyone was worried.
I saw the Dolphins at Swim with the Dolphins Experience. It costs $65 to swim with them. I watched though. I was so close yet so far.
At Teen Cruiser, we played capture the Flag, Balderdash, Truth or Dare and Snowball (a dancing game). Then we had pizza.
Sasha (our counselor) had a friend (also a counselor) who called me Cedar Point because we both know of it. When I sneezed he said Geinsunhut Cedar Point. And when he said Hey Cedar Point, what's up? I said the sky. There was also a guy. The photographer who took everyone's picture. He talked w/a British accent so I called him the guy from Monty Phython's Flying Circus.
DECEMBER 20th, 1993
There's no school and nothing to do. Since Mom + Dad are redoing the living + dining they won't take us anywhere. I talk to GIRL and GIRL on the phone. They're probably annoyed with me saying "What do I do?" GIRL called BOY after the mall yesterday. He said he likes me. But what do I do now?
Today, I got on the wrong tender at Salt Cay and everyone was worried.
I saw the Dolphins at Swim with the Dolphins Experience. It costs $65 to swim with them. I watched though. I was so close yet so far.
At Teen Cruiser, we played capture the Flag, Balderdash, Truth or Dare and Snowball (a dancing game). Then we had pizza.
Sasha (our counselor) had a friend (also a counselor) who called me Cedar Point because we both know of it. When I sneezed he said Geinsunhut Cedar Point. And when he said Hey Cedar Point, what's up? I said the sky. There was also a guy. The photographer who took everyone's picture. He talked w/a British accent so I called him the guy from Monty Phython's Flying Circus.
DECEMBER 20th, 1993
There's no school and nothing to do. Since Mom + Dad are redoing the living + dining they won't take us anywhere. I talk to GIRL and GIRL on the phone. They're probably annoyed with me saying "What do I do?" GIRL called BOY after the mall yesterday. He said he likes me. But what do I do now?
December 19, 2010
DECEMBER 19th, 1992, 1993, 1998
DECEMBER 19, 1992
Today we went to Nassau. Then we came home and swam (salt water pools), had dinner, and I went to Teen Cruiser.
At Teen Cruiser we played Krypto cards: (brthday pty = birthday party, dek = deck). I wanted our team to be called the Chilicothe Firehydrants. And we went to karaoke. I sang 9 to 5 by Dolly Parton. When I sang, a whole crowd of people looked on. My new friend Kate said, "You were good!" Then we went to the Teen Center and played the dating game, had pizza and went to the buffet.
DECEMBER 19, 1993
2nd "date" with BOY. GIRL, BOY, BOY and I all went to the mall. We skipped the movies. Although BOY joked A LOT with GIRL, he followed me everywhere. We laughed a lot about the usual stuff. And he refused me when I offered to help him pay for the Garfield slippers. He made GIRL do it.
"You won't make her pay cause you like her!" (GIRL)
"Uh-huh." (BOY)
I'm in love.
(PS he also said he was NOT Michelle's best friend!)
DECEMBER 19, 1998
I'm here judging at the Shaker Heights tournament. I'm bored and no one here (save maybe Katie) can relate to me. BOYFRIEND 1 is still his old lying acting self and BOYFRIEND 2 is such a delightful difference. I'm happy, but with that comes my main cause for sadness - I'm afraid to get too happy; what if he goes back to Michelle? I'm torturing myself, but it's my nature. I'm used to be lied to.
Anyway, I got a job (through Heather again) at Blockbuster Video in Strongsville like my parent's wanted and now they say I can't use the car, it's too far away, blah blah. Oh to be in California, in Hollywood.
BOYFRIEND 2 has a rich aunt in Florida and we're already formulating Spring Break plans. Maybe BOYFRIEND 2 will run away with me someday. It's only been one day and I'm longing to be back at BG; and not just for BOYFRIEND 2. I'm glad I have him to look forward to - or is that presumptious? There's that doubt again. Is it justified? I believe he loves me, but I also believe he's quick to fall in love. Oh geez. I just gotta remember my motto - just let things happen. I have to learn to trust.
Today we went to Nassau. Then we came home and swam (salt water pools), had dinner, and I went to Teen Cruiser.
At Teen Cruiser we played Krypto cards: (brthday pty = birthday party, dek = deck). I wanted our team to be called the Chilicothe Firehydrants. And we went to karaoke. I sang 9 to 5 by Dolly Parton. When I sang, a whole crowd of people looked on. My new friend Kate said, "You were good!" Then we went to the Teen Center and played the dating game, had pizza and went to the buffet.
DECEMBER 19, 1993
2nd "date" with BOY. GIRL, BOY, BOY and I all went to the mall. We skipped the movies. Although BOY joked A LOT with GIRL, he followed me everywhere. We laughed a lot about the usual stuff. And he refused me when I offered to help him pay for the Garfield slippers. He made GIRL do it.
"You won't make her pay cause you like her!" (GIRL)
"Uh-huh." (BOY)
I'm in love.
(PS he also said he was NOT Michelle's best friend!)
DECEMBER 19, 1998
I'm here judging at the Shaker Heights tournament. I'm bored and no one here (save maybe Katie) can relate to me. BOYFRIEND 1 is still his old lying acting self and BOYFRIEND 2 is such a delightful difference. I'm happy, but with that comes my main cause for sadness - I'm afraid to get too happy; what if he goes back to Michelle? I'm torturing myself, but it's my nature. I'm used to be lied to.
Anyway, I got a job (through Heather again) at Blockbuster Video in Strongsville like my parent's wanted and now they say I can't use the car, it's too far away, blah blah. Oh to be in California, in Hollywood.
BOYFRIEND 2 has a rich aunt in Florida and we're already formulating Spring Break plans. Maybe BOYFRIEND 2 will run away with me someday. It's only been one day and I'm longing to be back at BG; and not just for BOYFRIEND 2. I'm glad I have him to look forward to - or is that presumptious? There's that doubt again. Is it justified? I believe he loves me, but I also believe he's quick to fall in love. Oh geez. I just gotta remember my motto - just let things happen. I have to learn to trust.
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