DECEMBER 19th, 1992, 1993, 1998

DECEMBER 19, 1992

Today we went to Nassau. Then we came home and swam (salt water pools), had dinner, and I went to Teen Cruiser.

At Teen Cruiser we played Krypto cards: (brthday pty = birthday party, dek = deck). I wanted our team to be called the Chilicothe Firehydrants. And we went to karaoke. I sang 9 to 5 by Dolly Parton. When I sang, a whole crowd of people looked on. My new friend Kate said, "You were good!" Then we went to the Teen Center and played the dating game, had pizza and went to the buffet.

DECEMBER 19, 1993

2nd "date" with BOY. GIRL, BOY, BOY and I all went to the mall. We skipped the movies. Although BOY joked A LOT with GIRL, he followed me everywhere. We laughed a lot about the usual stuff. And he refused me when I offered to help him pay for the Garfield slippers. He made GIRL do it.

"You won't make her pay cause you like her!" (GIRL)
"Uh-huh." (BOY)
I'm in love.
(PS he also said he was NOT Michelle's best friend!)

DECEMBER 19, 1998

I'm here judging at the Shaker Heights tournament. I'm bored and no one here (save maybe Katie) can relate to me. BOYFRIEND 1 is still his old lying acting self and BOYFRIEND 2 is such a delightful difference. I'm happy, but with that comes my main cause for sadness - I'm afraid to get too happy; what if he goes back to Michelle? I'm torturing myself, but it's my nature. I'm used to be lied to.

Anyway, I got a job (through Heather again) at Blockbuster Video in Strongsville like my parent's wanted and now they say I can't use the car, it's too far away, blah blah. Oh to be in California, in Hollywood.

BOYFRIEND 2 has a rich aunt in Florida and we're already formulating Spring Break plans. Maybe BOYFRIEND 2 will run away with me someday. It's only been one day and I'm longing to be back at BG; and not just for BOYFRIEND 2. I'm glad I have him to look forward to - or is that presumptious? There's that doubt again. Is it justified? I believe he loves me, but I also believe he's quick to fall in love. Oh geez. I just gotta remember my motto - just let things happen. I have to learn to trust.