JULY 27th 1993
Got my character shoes today! They hurt my toes. 1 week until cheerleading camp. We got info from Ms. Dailey today.
On Salute Your Shorts - Ug's girlfriend Mona inspected the camp.
At Carousel rehearsal I didn't talk to Andy. He left early with his two sisters Theresa and Katie. Holly still can't walk very well. Lauren's mad cause I tease her about liking Andy (little does she know I'm covering up the fact that I like him). The carousel has 1 rocking horse and 7 booths. I hope they fix it. Jigger tapped my head as he raced passed. They changed my costume! No more two different colored purples! Now I have a nice blue dress, which is more like I had in mind. It laces up the back. They say I'm wearing it backwards, but the sleeves hurt when backwards. They let me wear it anyway. JR brought a newborn kitten hoping to find it a home. Theresa asked me if I liked Andy as a boyfriend. I said no. I lied. Bethany is fine.
JULY 27th 2003
I filmed another Last Call sketch. This time, Other Boy wasn't there until the last few hours, so I was free to stare at EX-BOYFRIEND #3 freely. I am very attracted to him, I almost can't stand it. There's really been nothing put out from either of us that either of us are interested in either of us. He's very confident and a little cocky, so I think if he wanted to make a move, he would. I'm set to film another skit sometime soon, and might even be in the stage show. I'll be attending that little function anyway, and hopefully the after party. I also invited them to my going away party. When I said I was moving, EX-BOYFRIEND #3 said, "I'm not like that idea too much." But just cause I'm the token girl. Other Boy's been hinting at me and him getting together again. How do I tell him I want his best friend?
July 27, 2012
July 26, 2012
JULY 26th 1993, 2002, 2003
JULY 26th 1993
At Carousel I actually talked to Andy. We were sitting on the porch set. He was reading about a racing car crash and telling me about it. The we talked about how he cried at Free Willy. I told him not to see Coneheads. Then Holly joined us and we talked about Robin Hood: Men in Tights. Later, the nice girl whole talked to me about the Jurassic Park book fell and hurt herself. I felt bad. Then Holly minutely hurt her ankle. Nothing serious. The Carousel set is small but fun. Peach showed me the inside of it.
JULY 26th 2002
He said to me, "I don't think we're gonna get back together." And that was that. It's absolutely over. I am devastated and disillusioned. My life is better because he was in it. I'm gonna move to LA in January. Nothing, absolutely NOTHING can stand in my way now. As tough as it is to not picture them together, I can move on now. A lot of things come to the foreground when the smoke is lifted. We moved too fast, too soon, and it faded. Unfortunately, I feel Tiffany is doomed to this same fate. But the only person I need to worry about is me. I am excited about the future and motivated like never before.
JULY 26th 2003
Last Weds, Mary and I went to the American Idols concert. Charles Grigsby (her ex) left us backstage passes and no tickets. So, I had to buy us tickets. Our seats were actually pretty good and the concert was OK. It made me jealous and depressed. ALL I wanted to do was meet Clay Aiken. So we went backstage and breezed past Julia DeMato, Carmen Rasmussen and Kimberley Caldwell to get to Kimberly Locke, Ricky Smith and finally Rueben himself. Rueben started hitting on Mary and apparently Clay had been and gone. I got some OK pictures. COMEDY FLING is coming to visit. Don't let me fall in love, ok?
At Carousel I actually talked to Andy. We were sitting on the porch set. He was reading about a racing car crash and telling me about it. The we talked about how he cried at Free Willy. I told him not to see Coneheads. Then Holly joined us and we talked about Robin Hood: Men in Tights. Later, the nice girl whole talked to me about the Jurassic Park book fell and hurt herself. I felt bad. Then Holly minutely hurt her ankle. Nothing serious. The Carousel set is small but fun. Peach showed me the inside of it.
JULY 26th 2002
He said to me, "I don't think we're gonna get back together." And that was that. It's absolutely over. I am devastated and disillusioned. My life is better because he was in it. I'm gonna move to LA in January. Nothing, absolutely NOTHING can stand in my way now. As tough as it is to not picture them together, I can move on now. A lot of things come to the foreground when the smoke is lifted. We moved too fast, too soon, and it faded. Unfortunately, I feel Tiffany is doomed to this same fate. But the only person I need to worry about is me. I am excited about the future and motivated like never before.
JULY 26th 2003
Last Weds, Mary and I went to the American Idols concert. Charles Grigsby (her ex) left us backstage passes and no tickets. So, I had to buy us tickets. Our seats were actually pretty good and the concert was OK. It made me jealous and depressed. ALL I wanted to do was meet Clay Aiken. So we went backstage and breezed past Julia DeMato, Carmen Rasmussen and Kimberley Caldwell to get to Kimberly Locke, Ricky Smith and finally Rueben himself. Rueben started hitting on Mary and apparently Clay had been and gone. I got some OK pictures. COMEDY FLING is coming to visit. Don't let me fall in love, ok?
September 10, 2011
SEPTEMBER 10th, 1993, 2000
SEPTEMBER 10th, 1993
Mrs. Hecker's husband Don came in 1st period with donuts.
3rd period I overheard Loni and Barb talking about whether Barb should say yes to YKW? No matter. I have back up. It's become a a habit to say good morning to Adam Koelher every day.
The game was OK. I sat by Michelle the whole time. YKW + Ryan walked by a few times, scanning the bleachers.
The dance was boring. I saw YKW and Barb dancing twice. I'm jealous. Even the ugly girls get dances. Even the stupid guys hate me.
SEPTEMBER 10th, 2000
OK, Hooters didn't call. I got called back to Nunsense and the lead in Emperor and got the ballerina role in Nunsense. I was very disappointed, so I asked if I could go to Emperor callbacks. Everyone said yes, but I didn't get it. Then Poopie tells me that Yifat screwed up my good intentions and now everyone thinks I'm a diva. Maggie deserved my ballerina part.
I'm thirsting for the real world. Bob is dating a Ryan Nowlin lookalike. I have been hanging out with Kevin, Amy, Anne, Sean, Matty and Martinez and I love it. Kurt is now in my theatre history class. He's been making eyes at me and asking me to do stuff and I've been aloof and even rude. He got the email I sent earlier this summer (where I apologized for Poopie and the way I treated him) right before he discovered I was in his class. He had called right after he'd read it. Anyway, this weekend I spent with Anne and Martinez and she said they saw him with another girl. So of course, now I want him. That's the way I work and it sucks. I pushed him away and he left and now I want him back.
Mrs. Hecker's husband Don came in 1st period with donuts.
3rd period I overheard Loni and Barb talking about whether Barb should say yes to YKW? No matter. I have back up. It's become a a habit to say good morning to Adam Koelher every day.
The game was OK. I sat by Michelle the whole time. YKW + Ryan walked by a few times, scanning the bleachers.
The dance was boring. I saw YKW and Barb dancing twice. I'm jealous. Even the ugly girls get dances. Even the stupid guys hate me.
SEPTEMBER 10th, 2000
OK, Hooters didn't call. I got called back to Nunsense and the lead in Emperor and got the ballerina role in Nunsense. I was very disappointed, so I asked if I could go to Emperor callbacks. Everyone said yes, but I didn't get it. Then Poopie tells me that Yifat screwed up my good intentions and now everyone thinks I'm a diva. Maggie deserved my ballerina part.
I'm thirsting for the real world. Bob is dating a Ryan Nowlin lookalike. I have been hanging out with Kevin, Amy, Anne, Sean, Matty and Martinez and I love it. Kurt is now in my theatre history class. He's been making eyes at me and asking me to do stuff and I've been aloof and even rude. He got the email I sent earlier this summer (where I apologized for Poopie and the way I treated him) right before he discovered I was in his class. He had called right after he'd read it. Anyway, this weekend I spent with Anne and Martinez and she said they saw him with another girl. So of course, now I want him. That's the way I work and it sucks. I pushed him away and he left and now I want him back.
September 9, 2011
SEPTEMBER 9th, 1993
SEPTEMBER 9th, 1993
In 1st period Jamie Michaels and I volunteered to be tenors. The only girls in a group of guys. I was snappy with Nick Neelis and I'm sorry I was.
In 4th period, Michelle told me how YKW and Barb "flirt" by talking, and Barb teasing him with papers, which made him mad. I miss YKW.
At lunch that guy came and called me Rebecca the slut. I was peeved. Michelle said he liked me. When we left, she wanted to go back because she LIKED how he called me RTS! What a gaywad.
Kristen Groffner is on crutches. I would have subbed for her but she'll be walking soon.
At practice, since Cindy's always at F-ball training, Mrs. Thompson got mad and appointed her alternate until (Cindy) she could prove herself.
Mr. Mercer said the play might be "The Good Doctor". ?
In 1st period Jamie Michaels and I volunteered to be tenors. The only girls in a group of guys. I was snappy with Nick Neelis and I'm sorry I was.
In 4th period, Michelle told me how YKW and Barb "flirt" by talking, and Barb teasing him with papers, which made him mad. I miss YKW.
At lunch that guy came and called me Rebecca the slut. I was peeved. Michelle said he liked me. When we left, she wanted to go back because she LIKED how he called me RTS! What a gaywad.
Kristen Groffner is on crutches. I would have subbed for her but she'll be walking soon.
At practice, since Cindy's always at F-ball training, Mrs. Thompson got mad and appointed her alternate until (Cindy) she could prove herself.
Mr. Mercer said the play might be "The Good Doctor". ?
September 8, 2011
SEPTEMBER 8th, 1993, 1994
SEPTEMBER 8th, 1993
In 1st period, Michelle wanted us to have a note notebook. I said NO WAY! You know what that can lead to! I felt kind of guilty though. She bought the notebook and all.
3rd period Jessica Holland was nice to me, somewhat. She started to say something about YKW, but was interrupted. It sounded important.
In 4th period Michelle takes everything I own and examines it.
In lunch I sit at the semi popular table. I hate it. I'm turning into a real nerd. There was some older guy who knew Lisa Hoffman really well and came to sit by us. He was insulting but very funny. I still don't know who he is.
SEPTEMBER 8th, 1994
Katie and I are becoming friends. She's in 4 of my classes.
Katie Mordarski saw Jason yesterday. He has two black eyes, a swollen face and a shiny nose. Jenny Stiger is so excited.
Dan took my ID card and kept it. He also said he'll buy me a Rocky Horror Picture Show t-shirt for my birthday. From the way he acts, I think he likes me, but one can never be too sure.
In 1st period, Michelle wanted us to have a note notebook. I said NO WAY! You know what that can lead to! I felt kind of guilty though. She bought the notebook and all.
3rd period Jessica Holland was nice to me, somewhat. She started to say something about YKW, but was interrupted. It sounded important.
In 4th period Michelle takes everything I own and examines it.
In lunch I sit at the semi popular table. I hate it. I'm turning into a real nerd. There was some older guy who knew Lisa Hoffman really well and came to sit by us. He was insulting but very funny. I still don't know who he is.
SEPTEMBER 8th, 1994
Katie and I are becoming friends. She's in 4 of my classes.
Katie Mordarski saw Jason yesterday. He has two black eyes, a swollen face and a shiny nose. Jenny Stiger is so excited.
Dan took my ID card and kept it. He also said he'll buy me a Rocky Horror Picture Show t-shirt for my birthday. From the way he acts, I think he likes me, but one can never be too sure.
September 7, 2011
SEPTEMBER 7TH 1993, 1994, 1995
SEPTEMBER 7TH, 1993
In 4th period, I went up to the hole puncher the same time Steve did.
"Hey Jessica."
"Hey Steve. Your still my favorite athlete."
"Yes!"
At my desk he patted me on the back.
"So how'd you do Jessica?"
"Fine," I said and peeled off the sticker he'd patted onto my back.
SEPTEMBER 7TH, 1994
I'm making friends with Lindsay Phillips and Katie Carroll. And I'm making close friends with Dan in Publications. I wonder if anything'll come of it.
Jason Riberdy says Jason H. may come back with a bandage on his nose.
SEPTEMBER 7TH, 1995
Tony called me on Tues. night. He told me I was pretty. I really want him to go to Wedel's on Fri. Chuck talks to him at Polaris. Chuck says Tony said he likes me. Chuck ALSO said he'll invite him over on Fri. (Tony's got his liscense).
Oh yeah. School. The Masquers meeting was yesterday. The fall play is a bunch of one acts, and the musical is Brigadoon. I'm seeing YKW a lot lately.
4th period Drew was shyly (or sadly) flirting w/me a little. Too late, Drew.
In 4th period, I went up to the hole puncher the same time Steve did.
"Hey Jessica."
"Hey Steve. Your still my favorite athlete."
"Yes!"
At my desk he patted me on the back.
"So how'd you do Jessica?"
"Fine," I said and peeled off the sticker he'd patted onto my back.
SEPTEMBER 7TH, 1994
I'm making friends with Lindsay Phillips and Katie Carroll. And I'm making close friends with Dan in Publications. I wonder if anything'll come of it.
Jason Riberdy says Jason H. may come back with a bandage on his nose.
SEPTEMBER 7TH, 1995
Tony called me on Tues. night. He told me I was pretty. I really want him to go to Wedel's on Fri. Chuck talks to him at Polaris. Chuck says Tony said he likes me. Chuck ALSO said he'll invite him over on Fri. (Tony's got his liscense).
Oh yeah. School. The Masquers meeting was yesterday. The fall play is a bunch of one acts, and the musical is Brigadoon. I'm seeing YKW a lot lately.
4th period Drew was shyly (or sadly) flirting w/me a little. Too late, Drew.
September 6, 2011
SEPTEMBER 6TH, 1993, 1994, 2004
SEPTEMBER 6TH, 1993
Today we went to Uncle Owen + Aunt Vicki's. I played Nintendo, and ate olives. I also played with Kaetlyn's Jurassic Park velociraptor that screams. We saw the Serrani's on the way home.
SEPTEMBER 6TH, 1994
Tara Donegan told me that Kirt is going into surgery this Thurs. then coming to school 2 wks after. She asked him if he was still going out with me; he said he heard I was using him so he didn't call me all summer. He did, though. I was never home and didn't return his calls. Oh well. In 7th period there's a frosh named Dan Burke. He's cute (And acts like Kirt)
SEPTEMBER 6TH, 2004
Well, it's exactly one year later and BOYFRIEND 4 and I broke up. Well, I dumped him. Over email, of course. For the past week we've been emailing our breakup. Well, I've been breaking up, he doesn't really say too much besides how he hates it and how awful he feels. I have yet to hear him say anything in his defense, or anything to stop me from going.
I dumped him because I never saw him, he won't call me his girlfriend, and I'm not a part of his life in any way. So I've joined the ranks of Melissa and Alisa and all the other girls who dumped him for not giving enough. And he's sad, just like he was with them. And I guess that's it.
I never thought I'd ever dump someone I love.
Today we went to Uncle Owen + Aunt Vicki's. I played Nintendo, and ate olives. I also played with Kaetlyn's Jurassic Park velociraptor that screams. We saw the Serrani's on the way home.
SEPTEMBER 6TH, 1994
Tara Donegan told me that Kirt is going into surgery this Thurs. then coming to school 2 wks after. She asked him if he was still going out with me; he said he heard I was using him so he didn't call me all summer. He did, though. I was never home and didn't return his calls. Oh well. In 7th period there's a frosh named Dan Burke. He's cute (And acts like Kirt)
SEPTEMBER 6TH, 2004
Well, it's exactly one year later and BOYFRIEND 4 and I broke up. Well, I dumped him. Over email, of course. For the past week we've been emailing our breakup. Well, I've been breaking up, he doesn't really say too much besides how he hates it and how awful he feels. I have yet to hear him say anything in his defense, or anything to stop me from going.
I dumped him because I never saw him, he won't call me his girlfriend, and I'm not a part of his life in any way. So I've joined the ranks of Melissa and Alisa and all the other girls who dumped him for not giving enough. And he's sad, just like he was with them. And I guess that's it.
I never thought I'd ever dump someone I love.
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