JANUARY 31st, 1993
We had the Bowl-a-thon today. Marion, Christy, and Julie didn't show up so I had to bowl with another team. (Angela Serrani, Mariel Scott, Kelli Mueller, and Stacie Soja). I bowled a 207 in 3 games (sum of all 3 = 207). It was fun, but when everyone cheered for each other, no one cheered for me. Well, except one "Good job, Jessie" from Angela.
I got my report card today:
MATH C
SCIENCE B
ART C
IND. ARTS B
CHOIR A
S.S. A
ENG A
I hope to go to the new Chuck E. Cheese's in Great Northern with either Holly S or Holly G.
JANUARY 31st, 1994
We tried out for 'Working.' BOY did...umm...OK. GIRL was thrilled with herself and I did average. I tried out for the Newsboy, too.
Holly Stone, Allison, Jenny, Amy and Emily all said I was terrific. I guess. I read a monologue for regular auditions, and then one like a kid for Newsboy. I guess I have a 80/20% chance of getting the Newsboy.
JANUARY 31st, 1996
We got new seats in Chemistry. I moved, but I STILL sit next to Kurt! Or is it Kirt? I think it's Kirt.
After school I sang some of my Brigadoon songs with Mr. Rizer, then went to the HI Run-off in Mr. Mercer's room. He can only take 3 HI-ers to the tournament this Saturday and there are 4 HI-ers. So Holly, Suze and I are competing for those spots. (Heather gets to go because she's a senior.)
JANUARY 31st, 2004
So things are going OK. I don't like living in Costa Mesa, but I love Arthur. So I'm going to move. Obviously, not tomorrow, but by summer. I would love to move someplace with BOYFRIEND 4, but I'm dreaming. Hopefully, Big Ed will still want me as a roommate like he mentioned once.
I made it into the professional level classes at Groundlings! I think they're must be some catch if they let me in, but we'll see. I hope I can get a lot out of it, maybe even make it into the company one day. Everything good can come out of it.
Tonight I hung out with Tariq. He's very funny, but I'm afraid of leading him on in any way. I know it sounds dumb, but I hate when a guy wants more and it makes a friendship tense. Not that he's made any huge signs of liking me, but I can see it going that way.
We saw Judd Apatow screen 3 pilots that never made it, in a club in Hollywood. Next week, Bob Odenkirk is doing the same thing. I can't wait to meet him!
I miss BOYFRIEND 4 like nothing else. There are so many times I wish I could turn and comment to him about something stupid, but I'm always alone. Or worse, I'm with someone who wouldn't get it anyway. I miss my friend.
January 31, 2011
January 29, 2011
JANUARY 29th, 1993, 1994, 1996, 1997
JANUARY 29th, 1993
Ski Club was fun, but most of my time was spent fighting with YKW. When I got my Dark Blue, and he didn't, he kept saying "Well, you had Debbie. She GAVE you it. You're still wedging!"
While we were waiting for our lesson, they started kicking snow again. When Cindi got hit with snow she yelled "You Know Who!!" I already knew his middle name was Know, but I pretended I didn't.
"Your middle name is KNOW?!"
"Shut up! What's your middle name?!"
"You don't want to know."
"You mean you don't want HIM to know!" (Cindi)
"Yeah."
So whenever he called me wilderbeast, I called him Know and he stopped.
At the end, I said, "Come on, YKW. Don't want to miss the bus, do we?"
Outside, "Are you sure the bus is over there?"
"It was last time."
"Last time, hahaha!"
"Shut up, wilderbeast!"
"You, KNOW!"
"You're only a Dark Blue because you had Debbie. We had Bruce."
"Excuses, excuses."
"If I went here alone, I'd be a Black. I'm a Gold in my eyes."
"Yeah, right. In your dreams."
"Shut up. I hate you, wilderbeast."
"I hate you too, Know."
"Don't walk with me."
"I'm not. I'm walking with Bryan, in MY EYES!"
Lindsay Phillips hurt her ankle (not really badly).
JANUARY 29th, 1994
Well, Forensics was fun, but BOY did nothing. There was plenty of time spent with him! He didn't do anything! I am so mad!
In Mr. Mercer's car on the way there, we listened to "Working" on BOY's walkmen.
We spent the entire day together, alone. We sat at a separate table than anyone else. We saw Cookie and laughed. And that's all. Just laughed.
JANUARY 29th, 1996
Today was a bad day. But despite everything - I'm still happy. Just because.
Me and Julie told Sharon about how we kissed Justin. We're not supposed to tell anyone, but Sharon's Sharon. Me and Julie came up with the code name "Want to go bowling" for "Let's go out with Justin." At play rehearsal we played trust games. I was Ben's partner and during one where we run down the hall blindfolded, I accidentally slammed Ben into the wall. They were all a little peeved at me, but they came around after I apologized. I messed up Chris's hair as I walked by him one time. Then I asked him what Matt was saying (Matt's mad because me and Julie talked about Justin.) Julie and Sharon said that Chris had a blast at the dance on Saturday night. I know it's cause I wasn't there.
On the way home (Julie drove me and Justin) we joked about "going bowling." Maybe this weekend.
JANUARY 29th, 1997
I've been having a pretty good week so far. YKW's in my 10th period Food Fitness class. Remember him?
Things are going pretty well with BOY. Tom and I are forming plans to get him. He didn't go to Ski Club yesterday cause it was GIRL's birthday. This morning he complained about how she didn't even say thank you for her gift. And that Lisa and Nate broke up, and he's thinking about dumping her. Tom says I'm golden. I hope so.
We tried out for "The Good-bye Girl" today.
Ski Club was fun, but most of my time was spent fighting with YKW. When I got my Dark Blue, and he didn't, he kept saying "Well, you had Debbie. She GAVE you it. You're still wedging!"
While we were waiting for our lesson, they started kicking snow again. When Cindi got hit with snow she yelled "You Know Who!!" I already knew his middle name was Know, but I pretended I didn't.
"Your middle name is KNOW?!"
"Shut up! What's your middle name?!"
"You don't want to know."
"You mean you don't want HIM to know!" (Cindi)
"Yeah."
So whenever he called me wilderbeast, I called him Know and he stopped.
At the end, I said, "Come on, YKW. Don't want to miss the bus, do we?"
Outside, "Are you sure the bus is over there?"
"It was last time."
"Last time, hahaha!"
"Shut up, wilderbeast!"
"You, KNOW!"
"You're only a Dark Blue because you had Debbie. We had Bruce."
"Excuses, excuses."
"If I went here alone, I'd be a Black. I'm a Gold in my eyes."
"Yeah, right. In your dreams."
"Shut up. I hate you, wilderbeast."
"I hate you too, Know."
"Don't walk with me."
"I'm not. I'm walking with Bryan, in MY EYES!"
Lindsay Phillips hurt her ankle (not really badly).
JANUARY 29th, 1994
Well, Forensics was fun, but BOY did nothing. There was plenty of time spent with him! He didn't do anything! I am so mad!
In Mr. Mercer's car on the way there, we listened to "Working" on BOY's walkmen.
We spent the entire day together, alone. We sat at a separate table than anyone else. We saw Cookie and laughed. And that's all. Just laughed.
JANUARY 29th, 1996
Today was a bad day. But despite everything - I'm still happy. Just because.
Me and Julie told Sharon about how we kissed Justin. We're not supposed to tell anyone, but Sharon's Sharon. Me and Julie came up with the code name "Want to go bowling" for "Let's go out with Justin." At play rehearsal we played trust games. I was Ben's partner and during one where we run down the hall blindfolded, I accidentally slammed Ben into the wall. They were all a little peeved at me, but they came around after I apologized. I messed up Chris's hair as I walked by him one time. Then I asked him what Matt was saying (Matt's mad because me and Julie talked about Justin.) Julie and Sharon said that Chris had a blast at the dance on Saturday night. I know it's cause I wasn't there.
On the way home (Julie drove me and Justin) we joked about "going bowling." Maybe this weekend.
JANUARY 29th, 1997
I've been having a pretty good week so far. YKW's in my 10th period Food Fitness class. Remember him?
Things are going pretty well with BOY. Tom and I are forming plans to get him. He didn't go to Ski Club yesterday cause it was GIRL's birthday. This morning he complained about how she didn't even say thank you for her gift. And that Lisa and Nate broke up, and he's thinking about dumping her. Tom says I'm golden. I hope so.
We tried out for "The Good-bye Girl" today.
January 28, 2011
JANUARY 28th, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2002
JANUARY 28th, 1993
6th period Mr. S (who never moved us before) has changed our seats. It's the worst! I guess I took for granted that I sat so close to YKW. Now I can't even see him! I'm all the way across the room from him! Now the only time of the day I see him I can only hear him!
Ski Club tomorrow. He'll probably ignore me there. I'll do my ultimate best to just be quiet and introverted and hope he notices my good behavior.
We had Ms. Sine's (mustache lady) for a sub in math.
I never did find out if our door decorating contest won. I think Mr. Bower's did. It was an all-white door with one red dot in the middle and it said "Rudolph in a snowstorm." It was pretty creative.
I have Writer's Block tomorrow morning.
Christina's gonna be mad cause I didn't have enough time to call her tonight.
JANUARY 28th, 1994
The plot thickens. Kirt is flirting, BOY is not. What do I do?
5th period Kirt (he's in a group with me and Schekel) kept putting his foot between my knees. When Bryan asked what he'd do with a million dollars, he said "I'd buy Jessica." And he flirts with me. I like Kirt a lot, but how long can I wait for BOY to make a move?
Last night at Michelle's, I wrote "Nina Loves Pochatkin" and "Jess loves BOY" on her books. Well, guess who she showed it to? BOY! She said he smiled and said "I can't believe she wrote that on your books!" The note he gave me after that seemed different. He seemed excited kind of. He also gave me (personally) a note that he didn't want Michelle to see. It had a funny picture of her.
JANUARY 28th, 1995
Forensics was fun. The Puppy was there and so was Tony. We were talking and the Puppy came over.
"Oh, have you met my boyfriend Tony?" I said as Tony put his arm around my waist. It was hilarious. Puppy told Tony to be afraid of him and Tony said no! and Puppy said yes! So Tony picked him up and said NO! Puppy goes "uh-oh, football player!" and ran away.
I won 6th place. Suze won 3rd!
JANUARY 28th, 1996
I worked with Scott all day. I mean - he was there. We talked about how deprived I am. He flirted mildly, but he does that to everyone. He said "Did I see you at Rocky River yesterday?" I said yes. When I went up to Warren to ask if I could leave, he pulled me back into the kitchen and said "No! You can't leave! We need you!" Then, right before I left I pulled his apron strings apart. He said, "See ya, Jessica." But it was different then how he usually talks to me. He was probably thinking about his girlfriend at the time.
JANUARY 28th, 2002
Well, I'm going to Cedar Point...kinda. There are 2 girls who are undecided about taking their roles in the Lusty Lil's show. If either of them say no, I'll be in that show. BUT - regardless, from April to June, I'll be JT at Camp Snoopy. They wanted Krista for the whole season of JT, but she could only take the last half, so second choice me got to split to contract with her. I'm happy to do it because I'll be BOYFRIEND 3 and Krista, and I can stay on as an understudy and a Peanut character, ugh, until the very end of the season - which means lots of money. But I'm a little hurt that even if I get the Lil's part (I can still do JT first, then the Lil's show), I'm still only second best. BOYFRIEND 3's running sound for Centennial, which means we have different schedules. I hope things all work out for the best. I really hope I get the Lil's show.
Anyway, Red Lobster is good, my bills are paid, dance classes are fun, my weight's alright, I'm going to BG this weekend, but I can't wait for Cedar Point!
6th period Mr. S (who never moved us before) has changed our seats. It's the worst! I guess I took for granted that I sat so close to YKW. Now I can't even see him! I'm all the way across the room from him! Now the only time of the day I see him I can only hear him!
Ski Club tomorrow. He'll probably ignore me there. I'll do my ultimate best to just be quiet and introverted and hope he notices my good behavior.
We had Ms. Sine's (mustache lady) for a sub in math.
I never did find out if our door decorating contest won. I think Mr. Bower's did. It was an all-white door with one red dot in the middle and it said "Rudolph in a snowstorm." It was pretty creative.
I have Writer's Block tomorrow morning.
Christina's gonna be mad cause I didn't have enough time to call her tonight.
JANUARY 28th, 1994
The plot thickens. Kirt is flirting, BOY is not. What do I do?
5th period Kirt (he's in a group with me and Schekel) kept putting his foot between my knees. When Bryan asked what he'd do with a million dollars, he said "I'd buy Jessica." And he flirts with me. I like Kirt a lot, but how long can I wait for BOY to make a move?
Last night at Michelle's, I wrote "Nina Loves Pochatkin" and "Jess loves BOY" on her books. Well, guess who she showed it to? BOY! She said he smiled and said "I can't believe she wrote that on your books!" The note he gave me after that seemed different. He seemed excited kind of. He also gave me (personally) a note that he didn't want Michelle to see. It had a funny picture of her.
JANUARY 28th, 1995
Forensics was fun. The Puppy was there and so was Tony. We were talking and the Puppy came over.
"Oh, have you met my boyfriend Tony?" I said as Tony put his arm around my waist. It was hilarious. Puppy told Tony to be afraid of him and Tony said no! and Puppy said yes! So Tony picked him up and said NO! Puppy goes "uh-oh, football player!" and ran away.
I won 6th place. Suze won 3rd!
JANUARY 28th, 1996
I worked with Scott all day. I mean - he was there. We talked about how deprived I am. He flirted mildly, but he does that to everyone. He said "Did I see you at Rocky River yesterday?" I said yes. When I went up to Warren to ask if I could leave, he pulled me back into the kitchen and said "No! You can't leave! We need you!" Then, right before I left I pulled his apron strings apart. He said, "See ya, Jessica." But it was different then how he usually talks to me. He was probably thinking about his girlfriend at the time.
JANUARY 28th, 2002
Well, I'm going to Cedar Point...kinda. There are 2 girls who are undecided about taking their roles in the Lusty Lil's show. If either of them say no, I'll be in that show. BUT - regardless, from April to June, I'll be JT at Camp Snoopy. They wanted Krista for the whole season of JT, but she could only take the last half, so second choice me got to split to contract with her. I'm happy to do it because I'll be BOYFRIEND 3 and Krista, and I can stay on as an understudy and a Peanut character, ugh, until the very end of the season - which means lots of money. But I'm a little hurt that even if I get the Lil's part (I can still do JT first, then the Lil's show), I'm still only second best. BOYFRIEND 3's running sound for Centennial, which means we have different schedules. I hope things all work out for the best. I really hope I get the Lil's show.
Anyway, Red Lobster is good, my bills are paid, dance classes are fun, my weight's alright, I'm going to BG this weekend, but I can't wait for Cedar Point!
January 26, 2011
JANUARY 26th, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 1997, 2003
JANUARY 26th, 1993
2nd period we have a substitute for choir (no Singer's either).
4th period I had art aiding (for the rest of the year).
6th period Social Studies.
"You have footprints on your back." (me to YKW)
"I don't care...I put them there! (YKW)
"I'd like to see you do that." (me)
We were getting worksheets on laws, and Scott gathered a whole bunch of extras and had them all spread on his desk. Mr. Schellentrager smiled when he saw him and said I was so patient. Scott held the papers like cards and said, "Nick, do you have a 3?" It was funny.
My new favorite musical is Disney's "Newsies". I like how they call papers "pape's".
I've been really drowsy with a stuffy nose, swollen glands, sore throat and tiredness. Mom got me a doctor's appointment. She says it may be tonsils or mono - a blood disease (communicable) that could keep me home from school for a month.
In English we are writing books for little kids. I want mine to be about a kid who gets lost in a toy store, stays overnight and plays with the toys. We, I think, are donating them to Rainbow Babies and Children's Hospital (the same place Laurie died).
In gym we're learning about sexually transmitted diseases. We saw a video about Ryan White.
JANUARY 26th, 1994
Before school. Ski Club was fun. But the day first:
Average day. I got a detention Saturday, Feb 5, for putting I was going to be here on my exam schedule when I left.
The audition clinic was fun. Mr. Mercer is psyched. So am I. Tryouts are next Mon. and Tues. BOY, Holly, Tessa and I all sat together in a corner of Mr. Mercer's room. We practiced singing, BOY's pretty good. Tessa complained that I was always a B**** around BOY. BOY said, "what's her problem?"
Ski Club. I sat on the bus with Kirt, skied with Kirt, and ate snacks with Kirt. I think he likes me. How can I use this to get BOY to do something? I know, it's evil, but Kirt knows I like BOY. I like Kirt, but I like BOY more. Lisa O'Hearn said she mentioned me in her autobiography for Group Guidance. Lindsay was friendly.
I had a dream about BOY and Lindsay. They were kissing. I was so sad. Was the dream really about me and Kirt?
JANUARY 26th, 1995
Yesterday's exams were frustrating. They made me take the gym exam and I'm not in gym! (because of Golden Expressions) and the French test had words I'd never learned on it!
Today was easier. Choir was a breeze and we just worked on pages in Publications. Tomorrow's Forensics. I'm getting bored of my piece. But this is the last one before Districts and stuff. Tony's going.
JANUARY 26th, 1996
What a day!
I came in at regular time and took my choir and math exam. In the math exam, Ashby came over and confessed to lying about the whole "he killed a guy in Cleveland" rumor. Whatever.
Then Julie let me drive from the high school to drop off Sharon. Chris and Brandon were behind us for the first few miles. Then Julie and I went to the Kuzmickas' house. Then we drove in Ben's car to Tony's. So me, Julie, Paul, Tony and Ben sat around waiting for Rich Marko. Turns out Rich had to work so we drove down to the airport Rapids and rode the Rapid all the way to Tower City. There we saw "Don't Be A Menace to South Central While Drinking Your Juice in the Hood", a black spoof. It was OK. Then we shopped for a long time. After that we rode the Rapid home and me and Julie went to her house. Then we went to Matt's, McDonald's, Parson's, Ben's and Parson's. At Ben's, Matt left with Drew cause me and Julie kept talking about Justin. At Justin's there was an injured possum in the road right in front of his driveway. So all of us stood around staring at it. (Ben, Tony, Rich, Matt, Matt Stravky, Justin, Sabrina, me, Julie, etc) So we called the police and they took it away. Then everyone went to Julie's. Me and Julie promised we'd make out with Justin. So after everyone left, we did. I don't even think I like Justin that way, but it was fun.
JANUARY 26th, 1997
Last night (day) was very UN-lucky. I didn't even place in Forensics. Then - Justin didn't go to the dance, he went out with Jenny. Then - at Chuck E. Cheese's, when Scott and I were hugging in the storage room, Julie walked in and WOULDN'T leave!! She KNEW what was going on! And from then on, she flirted with Scott! A the end, it started to work. So Sharon and me dropped her off and cruised around. Today at work, Scott ignored us both and flirted with a new girl.
JANUARY 26th, 2003
Yea! My first shows at Pickwick were ok. I still feel pressure to push my voice and be more amazing than is humanly possible, but the girls are fun and I seem to fit in ok.
I'm stuck at 110 lbs no matter what I eat. Is it safe to say my thyroid pills are responsible for that?
2nd period we have a substitute for choir (no Singer's either).
4th period I had art aiding (for the rest of the year).
6th period Social Studies.
"You have footprints on your back." (me to YKW)
"I don't care...I put them there! (YKW)
"I'd like to see you do that." (me)
We were getting worksheets on laws, and Scott gathered a whole bunch of extras and had them all spread on his desk. Mr. Schellentrager smiled when he saw him and said I was so patient. Scott held the papers like cards and said, "Nick, do you have a 3?" It was funny.
My new favorite musical is Disney's "Newsies". I like how they call papers "pape's".
I've been really drowsy with a stuffy nose, swollen glands, sore throat and tiredness. Mom got me a doctor's appointment. She says it may be tonsils or mono - a blood disease (communicable) that could keep me home from school for a month.
In English we are writing books for little kids. I want mine to be about a kid who gets lost in a toy store, stays overnight and plays with the toys. We, I think, are donating them to Rainbow Babies and Children's Hospital (the same place Laurie died).
In gym we're learning about sexually transmitted diseases. We saw a video about Ryan White.
JANUARY 26th, 1994
Before school. Ski Club was fun. But the day first:
Average day. I got a detention Saturday, Feb 5, for putting I was going to be here on my exam schedule when I left.
The audition clinic was fun. Mr. Mercer is psyched. So am I. Tryouts are next Mon. and Tues. BOY, Holly, Tessa and I all sat together in a corner of Mr. Mercer's room. We practiced singing, BOY's pretty good. Tessa complained that I was always a B**** around BOY. BOY said, "what's her problem?"
Ski Club. I sat on the bus with Kirt, skied with Kirt, and ate snacks with Kirt. I think he likes me. How can I use this to get BOY to do something? I know, it's evil, but Kirt knows I like BOY. I like Kirt, but I like BOY more. Lisa O'Hearn said she mentioned me in her autobiography for Group Guidance. Lindsay was friendly.
I had a dream about BOY and Lindsay. They were kissing. I was so sad. Was the dream really about me and Kirt?
JANUARY 26th, 1995
Yesterday's exams were frustrating. They made me take the gym exam and I'm not in gym! (because of Golden Expressions) and the French test had words I'd never learned on it!
Today was easier. Choir was a breeze and we just worked on pages in Publications. Tomorrow's Forensics. I'm getting bored of my piece. But this is the last one before Districts and stuff. Tony's going.
JANUARY 26th, 1996
What a day!
I came in at regular time and took my choir and math exam. In the math exam, Ashby came over and confessed to lying about the whole "he killed a guy in Cleveland" rumor. Whatever.
Then Julie let me drive from the high school to drop off Sharon. Chris and Brandon were behind us for the first few miles. Then Julie and I went to the Kuzmickas' house. Then we drove in Ben's car to Tony's. So me, Julie, Paul, Tony and Ben sat around waiting for Rich Marko. Turns out Rich had to work so we drove down to the airport Rapids and rode the Rapid all the way to Tower City. There we saw "Don't Be A Menace to South Central While Drinking Your Juice in the Hood", a black spoof. It was OK. Then we shopped for a long time. After that we rode the Rapid home and me and Julie went to her house. Then we went to Matt's, McDonald's, Parson's, Ben's and Parson's. At Ben's, Matt left with Drew cause me and Julie kept talking about Justin. At Justin's there was an injured possum in the road right in front of his driveway. So all of us stood around staring at it. (Ben, Tony, Rich, Matt, Matt Stravky, Justin, Sabrina, me, Julie, etc) So we called the police and they took it away. Then everyone went to Julie's. Me and Julie promised we'd make out with Justin. So after everyone left, we did. I don't even think I like Justin that way, but it was fun.
JANUARY 26th, 1997
Last night (day) was very UN-lucky. I didn't even place in Forensics. Then - Justin didn't go to the dance, he went out with Jenny. Then - at Chuck E. Cheese's, when Scott and I were hugging in the storage room, Julie walked in and WOULDN'T leave!! She KNEW what was going on! And from then on, she flirted with Scott! A the end, it started to work. So Sharon and me dropped her off and cruised around. Today at work, Scott ignored us both and flirted with a new girl.
JANUARY 26th, 2003
Yea! My first shows at Pickwick were ok. I still feel pressure to push my voice and be more amazing than is humanly possible, but the girls are fun and I seem to fit in ok.
I'm stuck at 110 lbs no matter what I eat. Is it safe to say my thyroid pills are responsible for that?
January 25, 2011
JANUARY 25th, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996
JANUARY 25th, 1993
1st period Reading is fun! We are learning about brain capacity, technology, and new ways to learn. YKW was absent and Mrs. Frantz didn't call his name (plus Marion thought she heard his name called in her reading class.)
Susie Patrick's confirmation name is Laura.
We have new kids in class (twin boys).
JANUARY 25th, 1994
Just got home after taking my last two tests, English and Home Ec. We got to use notes on both.
I saw BOY once. Boy, am I bored. In the lunch line, Ryan Thomas came up to me as usual and asked, "So?"
"So, what?"
"So, how's it going?"
"Oh! OK."
He pushed on, asking if anything had happened. He asked if BOY was going to ask me to the Valentine's dance. I don't know.
Tomorrow is the 'Working' audition clinic. I hope I make it into the musical. Everyone says no one is trying out because no one's heard of the play. But I want to be a part of it even so. I love acting and singing more than anything in the world. Also. This morning when I went to the library to return an overdo book, the librarian was none other than Madame "Shh!" from Toronto. I didn't realize this until Ryan Thomas came over.
"No, honey. We're not gonna charge you!" (Mme. Shh)
"No! Charge her! Charge her!" (Ryan)
"No!" (me)
"She's the talker! From Toronto! Remember? Charge her!" (Ryan)
M.Shh was shocked with recognition. "Run!" I said to Michelle and bolted out.
FRIENDS:
-Tessa Kinney
-Holly Gindlesperger
-Craig Meland
-Julie Leo
-Jamie Michaels
-Jocelyn Holt
-Valerie Basso
-Emily Adams
-Christine Miller
-Shannon Myers
-Michelle Gaspar
JANUARY 25th, 1995
Exams. The first two hours was my English test. (Always easy.)
The second block was Biology. (I got a 147 - B) When I came in the room, Drew was there.
"It's that Kemock girl!"
"Hi Drew."
He was working on Mr. Moore's computer. I went to stand by him. He drank some of my pop and asked me what's up. I was shocked that he actually started a conversation with me. I thought he'd forgotten me by now. So it's a tie. Drew or Tony?
The last test was Math. It could go either way.
JANUARY 25th, 1996
Today I went in for the second exam period (6th period - History). Then me, Julie, Sharon and Christy ate lunch at the mall. Then Sharon and I went to my house, then a new music store called Media Play. That was it. I'm so bored. Tomorrow we're all going to see two movies w/the Homies after the last 2 exams.
1st period Reading is fun! We are learning about brain capacity, technology, and new ways to learn. YKW was absent and Mrs. Frantz didn't call his name (plus Marion thought she heard his name called in her reading class.)
Susie Patrick's confirmation name is Laura.
We have new kids in class (twin boys).
JANUARY 25th, 1994
Just got home after taking my last two tests, English and Home Ec. We got to use notes on both.
I saw BOY once. Boy, am I bored. In the lunch line, Ryan Thomas came up to me as usual and asked, "So?"
"So, what?"
"So, how's it going?"
"Oh! OK."
He pushed on, asking if anything had happened. He asked if BOY was going to ask me to the Valentine's dance. I don't know.
Tomorrow is the 'Working' audition clinic. I hope I make it into the musical. Everyone says no one is trying out because no one's heard of the play. But I want to be a part of it even so. I love acting and singing more than anything in the world. Also. This morning when I went to the library to return an overdo book, the librarian was none other than Madame "Shh!" from Toronto. I didn't realize this until Ryan Thomas came over.
"No, honey. We're not gonna charge you!" (Mme. Shh)
"No! Charge her! Charge her!" (Ryan)
"No!" (me)
"She's the talker! From Toronto! Remember? Charge her!" (Ryan)
M.Shh was shocked with recognition. "Run!" I said to Michelle and bolted out.
FRIENDS:
-Tessa Kinney
-Holly Gindlesperger
-Craig Meland
-Julie Leo
-Jamie Michaels
-Jocelyn Holt
-Valerie Basso
-Emily Adams
-Christine Miller
-Shannon Myers
-Michelle Gaspar
JANUARY 25th, 1995
Exams. The first two hours was my English test. (Always easy.)
The second block was Biology. (I got a 147 - B) When I came in the room, Drew was there.
"It's that Kemock girl!"
"Hi Drew."
He was working on Mr. Moore's computer. I went to stand by him. He drank some of my pop and asked me what's up. I was shocked that he actually started a conversation with me. I thought he'd forgotten me by now. So it's a tie. Drew or Tony?
The last test was Math. It could go either way.
JANUARY 25th, 1996
Today I went in for the second exam period (6th period - History). Then me, Julie, Sharon and Christy ate lunch at the mall. Then Sharon and I went to my house, then a new music store called Media Play. That was it. I'm so bored. Tomorrow we're all going to see two movies w/the Homies after the last 2 exams.
January 22, 2011
January 22nd, 1992, 1997, 2001
JANUARY 22nd, 1992
Ski Club was OK. Holly was there (Gindlesperger). They lost her papers, but she got to ski anyway. I moved up to Intermediate. We went down Buttermilk. It was SO fun. I skipped Dark Green, and got Light Blue. Next Dark Blue, then Black. While we were waiting for our instructor at ski rack A, YKW, Bryan Scleigh, and Tom Trescott were having a snow fight (kicking it up on their skis). YKW kicked some on me so I smacked him in the chin with a snowball. He didn't do anything back. I also got Ryan with a s.ball, he tried, but couldn't hit me.
I asked YKW if I could go with him on the lift. He said he didn't care. But we had to get our sticker first. Then they decided to go in singles because it was faster, so I went with Cheryl and Cindy. One time on the lift, I sat with this nine year old girl who was going on Tiger. 9 years old!!
On the bus home, when the bus hit a bump, the lights flickered. I yelled "Poltergeist!" and every time it flickered, Lindsay and everyone looked at me and yelled "Stop it!!" ? I wasn't doing it! Then they passed a car on the road with cute (I guess) guys in it and they got yelled at for talking to them out the window. OH! I forgot:
At 9:15 we got on the bus early. We were parked in a no parking zone so we had to move. YKW and Brent Konzel thought we were leaving without them so they ran after the bus. When we didn't stop they were like, oh man! They had to call their moms! Then we stopped across the street and they got on and everyone clapped. I went up to YKW and put my hand on his hat and pulled back so he was looking at me. "I bet the whole school'll want to hear about this!" "Shut up!"
On the way home I kept yelling "Kemock!...What?" Answering myself.
At school, 1st period art (our last class) YKW got in trouble again for fighting with Jessica Holland. Then, at the end we got to sit where we wanted. (I moved by Christine, YKW moved to Scott's/my table. They were throwing spitballs at the ceiling.
6th period, Social Studies. We spent the whole period talking about murder, suicide, and child abuse. I think we should have a discussion once a week.
On Monday I have 1st period Reading (Miss Frantz) with YKW.
Definite Grades:
Math: C
Science: B
Undefinite:
Art: C or D
SS: B
Ind. Arts: B
English: A
JANUARY 22nd, 1997
WOW!
OK, the curse is officially gone!
Tues: at Ski Club BOY was very "present". Tom and me skiied together, but later, BOY and Chip DuMond came too. Tom told me he could get some info out of BOY so he rode the lift with him and did it! Tom told me that BOY said stuff like "my relationship w/GIRL is nice; I've wanted one for so long, but Jess is so fun. She has 'magic fingers'. I've had so many dreams about the time we fooled around. She had so much energy! She's so funny. She's gonna have to wait till after GIRL. But sometimes the temptation is so overwhelming..." etc, etc.
Also - I got email from BOY that said 'maybe when I come home, we can see if you're still all talk' and 'I best get some when I get home!!' Holy wow!
Today: Mr. Gibeaut was singing 'Crash Into Me' today in exams (a song by Dave Matthews Band that I adore) and I flipped out. Then, after school, Katie gave me the D.Matthews CD to borrow, with the song on it! Then, I got online and BOY was on too. So we chatted a little and we're trying to get together online tonight.
JANUARY 22nd, 2001
LA was fantastically amazing! I loved it there so much! I got my hair chopped off there, and it looks great! We met with Jeff Witjas for two hours where we met Justin Louis (a guy who's reel we saw when Jeff came to BG). He just got onto a new show called "The Fighting Fitzgeralds". We strolled on Rodeo Dr., cruised up Mulholland Dr., ate at the Farmer's Market with Arthur, ate at the Hotel Mondrian in hopes of getting into Skybar. I was sad to go home. But they lost Kevin's luggage for three days, so we flew first class all the way!
At home, life is tense at Troupe. Annie and Ursi seem to be tiring of me. Molten is great. I work 10-1 and get paid for six hours. "A...My Name is Alice" is incredible. We've been open since Thursday and it's going great. I really stick out being the youngest and most athletic! As for the movie, we're still waiting. Roger schmoozed Kelly a callback, but when we went out with the director, Todd Fischer, Roger and Rob, they said there might not be callbacks. Todd says Luke Perry is in the movie and it's going to theaters, not festivals. They start shooting in March until May. Yeah, I'll believe it when I see proof. I also tried out, got called back to Cedar Point and did well. So we'll see!
Ski Club was OK. Holly was there (Gindlesperger). They lost her papers, but she got to ski anyway. I moved up to Intermediate. We went down Buttermilk. It was SO fun. I skipped Dark Green, and got Light Blue. Next Dark Blue, then Black. While we were waiting for our instructor at ski rack A, YKW, Bryan Scleigh, and Tom Trescott were having a snow fight (kicking it up on their skis). YKW kicked some on me so I smacked him in the chin with a snowball. He didn't do anything back. I also got Ryan with a s.ball, he tried, but couldn't hit me.
I asked YKW if I could go with him on the lift. He said he didn't care. But we had to get our sticker first. Then they decided to go in singles because it was faster, so I went with Cheryl and Cindy. One time on the lift, I sat with this nine year old girl who was going on Tiger. 9 years old!!
On the bus home, when the bus hit a bump, the lights flickered. I yelled "Poltergeist!" and every time it flickered, Lindsay and everyone looked at me and yelled "Stop it!!" ? I wasn't doing it! Then they passed a car on the road with cute (I guess) guys in it and they got yelled at for talking to them out the window. OH! I forgot:
At 9:15 we got on the bus early. We were parked in a no parking zone so we had to move. YKW and Brent Konzel thought we were leaving without them so they ran after the bus. When we didn't stop they were like, oh man! They had to call their moms! Then we stopped across the street and they got on and everyone clapped. I went up to YKW and put my hand on his hat and pulled back so he was looking at me. "I bet the whole school'll want to hear about this!" "Shut up!"
On the way home I kept yelling "Kemock!...What?" Answering myself.
At school, 1st period art (our last class) YKW got in trouble again for fighting with Jessica Holland. Then, at the end we got to sit where we wanted. (I moved by Christine, YKW moved to Scott's/my table. They were throwing spitballs at the ceiling.
6th period, Social Studies. We spent the whole period talking about murder, suicide, and child abuse. I think we should have a discussion once a week.
On Monday I have 1st period Reading (Miss Frantz) with YKW.
Definite Grades:
Math: C
Science: B
Undefinite:
Art: C or D
SS: B
Ind. Arts: B
English: A
JANUARY 22nd, 1997
WOW!
OK, the curse is officially gone!
Tues: at Ski Club BOY was very "present". Tom and me skiied together, but later, BOY and Chip DuMond came too. Tom told me he could get some info out of BOY so he rode the lift with him and did it! Tom told me that BOY said stuff like "my relationship w/GIRL is nice; I've wanted one for so long, but Jess is so fun. She has 'magic fingers'. I've had so many dreams about the time we fooled around. She had so much energy! She's so funny. She's gonna have to wait till after GIRL. But sometimes the temptation is so overwhelming..." etc, etc.
Also - I got email from BOY that said 'maybe when I come home, we can see if you're still all talk' and 'I best get some when I get home!!' Holy wow!
Today: Mr. Gibeaut was singing 'Crash Into Me' today in exams (a song by Dave Matthews Band that I adore) and I flipped out. Then, after school, Katie gave me the D.Matthews CD to borrow, with the song on it! Then, I got online and BOY was on too. So we chatted a little and we're trying to get together online tonight.
JANUARY 22nd, 2001
LA was fantastically amazing! I loved it there so much! I got my hair chopped off there, and it looks great! We met with Jeff Witjas for two hours where we met Justin Louis (a guy who's reel we saw when Jeff came to BG). He just got onto a new show called "The Fighting Fitzgeralds". We strolled on Rodeo Dr., cruised up Mulholland Dr., ate at the Farmer's Market with Arthur, ate at the Hotel Mondrian in hopes of getting into Skybar. I was sad to go home. But they lost Kevin's luggage for three days, so we flew first class all the way!
At home, life is tense at Troupe. Annie and Ursi seem to be tiring of me. Molten is great. I work 10-1 and get paid for six hours. "A...My Name is Alice" is incredible. We've been open since Thursday and it's going great. I really stick out being the youngest and most athletic! As for the movie, we're still waiting. Roger schmoozed Kelly a callback, but when we went out with the director, Todd Fischer, Roger and Rob, they said there might not be callbacks. Todd says Luke Perry is in the movie and it's going to theaters, not festivals. They start shooting in March until May. Yeah, I'll believe it when I see proof. I also tried out, got called back to Cedar Point and did well. So we'll see!
January 21, 2011
JANUARY 21st, 1993, 1994
JANUARY 21st, 1993
YKW is back.
Danielle threw something across the room and YKW got in trouble for it. Mrs. Weigel was without a voice so she couldn't yell. (She had Tim give the directions while Joe Casola sign-languaged to the class (as a joke)). I swore to Mrs. Weigel that he didn't throw anything, but she either didn't believe me or was too proud to apologize to YKW. I may go to Michelle's on Saturday. I hope we go on a bike ride past YKW's house.
X-am grades:
Math: ?
Science: A
S.Studies: C
English: ?
We have Ski Club tomorrow. According to my last Fri's entry, I CAN'T WAIT!! Holly G's going, but is in the 1st class (she missed the first session) and I'm in the 2nd.
I am liking Scott Chrise A LOT more than I used to. Today in art, while we were drawing lanterns, he pulled a switch that raised part of the light. He left it that way so the next person drawing it'd be confused and wonder why his drawing didn't match the lantern.
JANUARY 21st, 1994
Well, I saw him all right! It was so much fun!
We picked him up before GIRL. (Holly couldn't come) He gave me pictures of Dolly Dimples. When we got GIRL, he sat in the middle.
When we got to the Beck Center, we were so loud and obnoxious! The security guard was eyeing us. He once took out his handcuffs threateningly. When we auditioned, we found we were a BIT too old for the parts. BOY and I kept saying "Coo-Coo!" We didn't get asked to stay for callbacks. (Gee, I wonder why?!)
On the way home we drove through McDonald's and got milkshakes. We were playing Helen Keller in the back seat. BOY was flaying around and feeling my hands as I spelled words.
YKW is back.
Danielle threw something across the room and YKW got in trouble for it. Mrs. Weigel was without a voice so she couldn't yell. (She had Tim give the directions while Joe Casola sign-languaged to the class (as a joke)). I swore to Mrs. Weigel that he didn't throw anything, but she either didn't believe me or was too proud to apologize to YKW. I may go to Michelle's on Saturday. I hope we go on a bike ride past YKW's house.
X-am grades:
Math: ?
Science: A
S.Studies: C
English: ?
We have Ski Club tomorrow. According to my last Fri's entry, I CAN'T WAIT!! Holly G's going, but is in the 1st class (she missed the first session) and I'm in the 2nd.
I am liking Scott Chrise A LOT more than I used to. Today in art, while we were drawing lanterns, he pulled a switch that raised part of the light. He left it that way so the next person drawing it'd be confused and wonder why his drawing didn't match the lantern.
JANUARY 21st, 1994
Well, I saw him all right! It was so much fun!
We picked him up before GIRL. (Holly couldn't come) He gave me pictures of Dolly Dimples. When we got GIRL, he sat in the middle.
When we got to the Beck Center, we were so loud and obnoxious! The security guard was eyeing us. He once took out his handcuffs threateningly. When we auditioned, we found we were a BIT too old for the parts. BOY and I kept saying "Coo-Coo!" We didn't get asked to stay for callbacks. (Gee, I wonder why?!)
On the way home we drove through McDonald's and got milkshakes. We were playing Helen Keller in the back seat. BOY was flaying around and feeling my hands as I spelled words.
January 20, 2011
JANUARY 20th, 1993, 1994, 1996, 1997
JANUARY 20th, 1993
I made a Bill Clinton hand puppet and took it to school. Everyone laughed. We watched parts of the Inauguration at lunch and in Mrs. Petrokowski's 3rd period class. Bill Clinton was sworn in at 12:00.
In 1st period art, I threw the bouncy ball to YKW. While we were drawing still lifes. (I drew a lantern) YKW threw it to Scott who ignored it because Mrs. Weigel was looking right at him. He got detention, sat in the corner, and she took the ball away. He looked at me while in the corner and I mouthed "This is not my fault!" he smiled and said "Yes it is!" He had a pass to leave school at 11:45. He said to Scott, "No reason, I just want to leave." He was on the absent sheet, to. He left, I didn't see him in 6th period. He probably just wanted to hide something like a dermatologist appointment.
JANUARY 20th, 1994, 9:57am
I'm in heaven! You won't believe it! But by the time, you can see that I'm home. Another snow day!! Hopefully I can get out of the house today. Tonight me, BOY, Holly G., and GIRL will hopefully tryout for "To Kill a Mockingbird."
I called BOY to tell him we'd pick up him up at 6:00. The tryouts are still on. As usual, we talked about Bobby's World (doncha know) and SNL's Blossom (whoa!).
JANUARY 20th, 1996
Forensics was at Stow. Suze and Gail placed. BOY talked to Heather and Suze and Gail. I made myself scarce. But every time we went by him, Suze always said "He's staring at you - I mean us!"
At work, it was pretty dull until Tony, Paul and Ben came in. They were with some guy from the Golden Corral. I talked to them for a long time. Paul and Tony teased me saying (to their GC friend) "If you ever go to Cupachino's..." Ben forgave me so he's the only one who just let's it go. Paul keeps bringing it up. Tony's pretty normal. We all talked about the play and me being Chuck E. Cheese and them taking the GC guy to see Dusk Till Dawn after pizza. Then I got in the Jaspar costume and played a few games with them.
JANUARY 20th, 1997
Well, I've hit a very dry well. At first Ski Club I got my black...and no attention from BOY. The few times I tried Scott...nothing. This weekend was frustrating. On Thurs, I watched Scott wrestle (and lose) at the OF/Westlake match. Then Fri (a snow day) me, Julie, Sharon and Kim were denied by the Homies and Scott. Sat (I won First Place at Forensics) was a boring Ba night. And Sun, Karissa Butts said Scott and everyone were going to the Boot Scoot'n Saloon, so me and Julie and Christy went - they weren't there. The Homies were though. It was dull. I realized today that Ben's "you won't get any" curse was working. Sharon said I should give it to someone and I gave it to Laura. So I'm cured.
I made a Bill Clinton hand puppet and took it to school. Everyone laughed. We watched parts of the Inauguration at lunch and in Mrs. Petrokowski's 3rd period class. Bill Clinton was sworn in at 12:00.
In 1st period art, I threw the bouncy ball to YKW. While we were drawing still lifes. (I drew a lantern) YKW threw it to Scott who ignored it because Mrs. Weigel was looking right at him. He got detention, sat in the corner, and she took the ball away. He looked at me while in the corner and I mouthed "This is not my fault!" he smiled and said "Yes it is!" He had a pass to leave school at 11:45. He said to Scott, "No reason, I just want to leave." He was on the absent sheet, to. He left, I didn't see him in 6th period. He probably just wanted to hide something like a dermatologist appointment.
JANUARY 20th, 1994, 9:57am
I'm in heaven! You won't believe it! But by the time, you can see that I'm home. Another snow day!! Hopefully I can get out of the house today. Tonight me, BOY, Holly G., and GIRL will hopefully tryout for "To Kill a Mockingbird."
I called BOY to tell him we'd pick up him up at 6:00. The tryouts are still on. As usual, we talked about Bobby's World (doncha know) and SNL's Blossom (whoa!).
JANUARY 20th, 1996
Forensics was at Stow. Suze and Gail placed. BOY talked to Heather and Suze and Gail. I made myself scarce. But every time we went by him, Suze always said "He's staring at you - I mean us!"
At work, it was pretty dull until Tony, Paul and Ben came in. They were with some guy from the Golden Corral. I talked to them for a long time. Paul and Tony teased me saying (to their GC friend) "If you ever go to Cupachino's..." Ben forgave me so he's the only one who just let's it go. Paul keeps bringing it up. Tony's pretty normal. We all talked about the play and me being Chuck E. Cheese and them taking the GC guy to see Dusk Till Dawn after pizza. Then I got in the Jaspar costume and played a few games with them.
JANUARY 20th, 1997
Well, I've hit a very dry well. At first Ski Club I got my black...and no attention from BOY. The few times I tried Scott...nothing. This weekend was frustrating. On Thurs, I watched Scott wrestle (and lose) at the OF/Westlake match. Then Fri (a snow day) me, Julie, Sharon and Kim were denied by the Homies and Scott. Sat (I won First Place at Forensics) was a boring Ba night. And Sun, Karissa Butts said Scott and everyone were going to the Boot Scoot'n Saloon, so me and Julie and Christy went - they weren't there. The Homies were though. It was dull. I realized today that Ben's "you won't get any" curse was working. Sharon said I should give it to someone and I gave it to Laura. So I'm cured.
January 19, 2011
JANUARY 19th, 1993, 1996, 2002, 2003
JANUARY 19th, 1993
On Sunday when Michelle and Torey came over - big failure. Torey and Kath made fun of Michelle's singing and Michelle told them to shut their faces. She was saying, "No, I have been INSULTED." Next time, I sleep over her house so I can ride my bike to YKW's house.
Then on Tuesday (today) they were filming the school and showing all the bad things that were wrong with it. It showed on Live on Five at 5:18. There weren't any kids I knew in it.
In 1st period art, me and Scott were throwing rulers at YKW. Jessica Holland slapped him in the face with her folder, for putting raffia in her hair.
In 6th period Social Studies, Mr. Schellentrager tricked us by pretending we had new laws in the classroom. 1. We had to bring in the front page of the Plain Dealer every day (I found out YKW only gets Sunday's edition). 2. We had to bring an American flag every day (small one). 3. We had to stand and say good afternoon Master Schellentrager.
He had us look through the student handbook to see if all this was legal. We had a big discussion. Then he said we didn't have to do it, he was just teaching us about constitutions. I had a feeling it was, from overhearing Scott and YKW saying, "It's gotta be a joke."
Christina gave me the note she wrote me on Thursday last week today. It has a picture of Lumiere from Beauty and the Beast. Michelle said she'd take notes about YKW on the bus (#61) today.
I saw YKW smile at me. Or it could of been, he was smiling and happened to look at me.
We raced Mouse trap-powered vehicles today. Mine went about 5 inches. Kristen Groffner's went 13 feet. We have a new kid. He name is Chris. Everyone likes him (the girls, I mean) but I think he's ugly. Kristen's mouse-trap : the kill bar propels the ball which drags the mini car through the air. She got money for being 1st place.
JANUARY 19th, 1996
At callbacks yesterday, I was the only girl to read for Fiona, the lead. Today Mr. Rizer posted the list and I'm Fiona! Katie's Meg. Norris is Tommy. I have to kiss him. Drew almost was Tommy.
After school I went to the game with Julie and Katie (who says she expected to be Fiona). At the game, we hung around the band (Sharon, Cale, Greg Poltrone) and Andrea Cutlip (who plays my little sister in Brigadoon, Jean). Sharon got Maggie Anderson, a VERY big dancing part. Chris P is her father, Mr. Anderson. Julie and Elicia are in it too. After the game, me, Tony, Paul, Ben, Holly Stone, Julie and Katie went to see "From Dusk Till Dawn". It was a funny/gory/psycho/vampire movie. Julie let me drive from the high school to Jim's house before the movie.
JANUARY 19th, 2002
OK, Busch Garden's offered me a job as "Molly Malone" - a walkaround in their Ireland-land. I would start in early March and go until October. Whoa! But as a walkaround? That would suck! So I called Cedar Point and asked if they had anything for me. Lisa said I was being considered for a part in the Lusty Lil's show, but also JT in Camp Snoopy. She made it sound like I could count on JT, but won't cast me officially in case the Lil's job opens up (I'm a second choice). So they're calling me later this week. It sounds pretty certain, but I'm not out of the water yet. BOYFRIEND 3 was guaranteed a job there, but hasn't heard from Lance yet. Can we please have some answers! I will just float through the last couple months in Muncie when I know for sure where I'll be this summer.
On another note, BOY keeps calling. I feel so awkward. He called today, begging me to drop everything and go to the Rugby banquet with him and Reed and Kelly. I felt a little uncomfortable because he's such a "not used to being turned down and won't take no for an answer" kind of guy. But he sounded really sincere when he said he missed me. Aww, poor BOY is growing up and realizing he's gonna need to start treating girls right if he ever wants a wife!
BOYFRIEND 3 and I celebrated his 23rd birthday and our 5 month anniversary this Thursday. We went to the Ball State/BGSU basketball game. Life is good.
JANUARY 19th, 2003
A lot of things...
First, the Last Call Cleveland show was hilarious. It's a terrific group of guys and I would love to be associated with them. The show was packed and Cleveland loves these guys.
Then there's Pickwick and Frolic. I'm stuck in this show until September which I'm not terribly happy about. But the show seems well-received, new and destined for some local recognition which may lead me to good things. I sing "Mamma Mia" "The Bitch is Back" and "Bop Till You Drop" as solos. BUT - the directors never seem happy with me. I feel very crummy. But then they compliment me all the time. I'm frustrated and confused and I open on Thursday.
The Golden Globes were tonight. I would kill for Jennifer Aniston's career. She is truly talented, but all her success really comes down to the fact that she is the Most Popular girl in Hollywood.
Tonight, I was up in the attic. I opened my box of "Ex stuff" and started looking at our old pictures. And I feel fine. I miss him terribly. But I miss a memory. A past version of him. I don't want him now. I'm relieved to be free and can't wait to fall in love again. But I miss the companion I had. The friend that I came home to everyday. I will always love him in some form. But I never want to see him again. The real him will just ruin the happy memories I have.
On Sunday when Michelle and Torey came over - big failure. Torey and Kath made fun of Michelle's singing and Michelle told them to shut their faces. She was saying, "No, I have been INSULTED." Next time, I sleep over her house so I can ride my bike to YKW's house.
Then on Tuesday (today) they were filming the school and showing all the bad things that were wrong with it. It showed on Live on Five at 5:18. There weren't any kids I knew in it.
In 1st period art, me and Scott were throwing rulers at YKW. Jessica Holland slapped him in the face with her folder, for putting raffia in her hair.
In 6th period Social Studies, Mr. Schellentrager tricked us by pretending we had new laws in the classroom. 1. We had to bring in the front page of the Plain Dealer every day (I found out YKW only gets Sunday's edition). 2. We had to bring an American flag every day (small one). 3. We had to stand and say good afternoon Master Schellentrager.
He had us look through the student handbook to see if all this was legal. We had a big discussion. Then he said we didn't have to do it, he was just teaching us about constitutions. I had a feeling it was, from overhearing Scott and YKW saying, "It's gotta be a joke."
Christina gave me the note she wrote me on Thursday last week today. It has a picture of Lumiere from Beauty and the Beast. Michelle said she'd take notes about YKW on the bus (#61) today.
I saw YKW smile at me. Or it could of been, he was smiling and happened to look at me.
We raced Mouse trap-powered vehicles today. Mine went about 5 inches. Kristen Groffner's went 13 feet. We have a new kid. He name is Chris. Everyone likes him (the girls, I mean) but I think he's ugly. Kristen's mouse-trap : the kill bar propels the ball which drags the mini car through the air. She got money for being 1st place.
JANUARY 19th, 1996
At callbacks yesterday, I was the only girl to read for Fiona, the lead. Today Mr. Rizer posted the list and I'm Fiona! Katie's Meg. Norris is Tommy. I have to kiss him. Drew almost was Tommy.
After school I went to the game with Julie and Katie (who says she expected to be Fiona). At the game, we hung around the band (Sharon, Cale, Greg Poltrone) and Andrea Cutlip (who plays my little sister in Brigadoon, Jean). Sharon got Maggie Anderson, a VERY big dancing part. Chris P is her father, Mr. Anderson. Julie and Elicia are in it too. After the game, me, Tony, Paul, Ben, Holly Stone, Julie and Katie went to see "From Dusk Till Dawn". It was a funny/gory/psycho/vampire movie. Julie let me drive from the high school to Jim's house before the movie.
JANUARY 19th, 2002
OK, Busch Garden's offered me a job as "Molly Malone" - a walkaround in their Ireland-land. I would start in early March and go until October. Whoa! But as a walkaround? That would suck! So I called Cedar Point and asked if they had anything for me. Lisa said I was being considered for a part in the Lusty Lil's show, but also JT in Camp Snoopy. She made it sound like I could count on JT, but won't cast me officially in case the Lil's job opens up (I'm a second choice). So they're calling me later this week. It sounds pretty certain, but I'm not out of the water yet. BOYFRIEND 3 was guaranteed a job there, but hasn't heard from Lance yet. Can we please have some answers! I will just float through the last couple months in Muncie when I know for sure where I'll be this summer.
On another note, BOY keeps calling. I feel so awkward. He called today, begging me to drop everything and go to the Rugby banquet with him and Reed and Kelly. I felt a little uncomfortable because he's such a "not used to being turned down and won't take no for an answer" kind of guy. But he sounded really sincere when he said he missed me. Aww, poor BOY is growing up and realizing he's gonna need to start treating girls right if he ever wants a wife!
BOYFRIEND 3 and I celebrated his 23rd birthday and our 5 month anniversary this Thursday. We went to the Ball State/BGSU basketball game. Life is good.
JANUARY 19th, 2003
A lot of things...
First, the Last Call Cleveland show was hilarious. It's a terrific group of guys and I would love to be associated with them. The show was packed and Cleveland loves these guys.
Then there's Pickwick and Frolic. I'm stuck in this show until September which I'm not terribly happy about. But the show seems well-received, new and destined for some local recognition which may lead me to good things. I sing "Mamma Mia" "The Bitch is Back" and "Bop Till You Drop" as solos. BUT - the directors never seem happy with me. I feel very crummy. But then they compliment me all the time. I'm frustrated and confused and I open on Thursday.
The Golden Globes were tonight. I would kill for Jennifer Aniston's career. She is truly talented, but all her success really comes down to the fact that she is the Most Popular girl in Hollywood.
Tonight, I was up in the attic. I opened my box of "Ex stuff" and started looking at our old pictures. And I feel fine. I miss him terribly. But I miss a memory. A past version of him. I don't want him now. I'm relieved to be free and can't wait to fall in love again. But I miss the companion I had. The friend that I came home to everyday. I will always love him in some form. But I never want to see him again. The real him will just ruin the happy memories I have.
January 18, 2011
JANUARY 18th, 1994, 1996, 1998
JANUARY 18th, 1994
I'm listening to my tape of when me and BOY went over GIRL's. Guess what! It was a snow day today! I also heard on the radio that tomorrow's cancelled! This is great! I just wish BOY would call.
Ah, another journal, another crush. It's all getting so monotonous. I wonder if BOY will still be my main squeeze in the next journal. This is my third journal and second year of journalling. That's an average of two books per year.
FRIENDS:
1. Tessa Kinney
2. Craig Meland
3. Julie Leo
FAVORITE PLACES:
1. Cedar Point
2. Sea World
3. Boston Mills Ski Resort
FAVORITE SONGS
1. On My Own
2. A Little Fall of Rain
3. All That She Wants Is Another Baby
Are you, as a reader, getting bored? What can I do different in this new journal?
UPDATE:
age: 15
weight: 107
height: 5'3"
eyes: mud
hair: dirty blonde/red, curly
other: still got short nails, and braces
fav. teachers: Mr. Mercer, Mr. Niforos
fav. rides: Disaster Transport, Iron Dragon
career: actress or dolphin trainer
college: Bowling Green State University
interests: acting, roller coasters, singing, dolphins
fav. singer: Frances Ruffelle
fav. show: SeaQuest DSV
fav. character: Lucas Wolenczak
fav. play: Les Miserables
fav. character: Eponine
fav. movie: The Breakfast Club
fav. character: Andy
MY GOALS (short-term)
1. Make it into "Working"
2. Get my black in Ski Club
3. Make it into "To Kill a Mockingbird"
LONG-TERM GOALS
1. be in a major theatre production (Phantom/Les Miz)
2. work at Cedar Point
3. work at Sea World
My Fav. Les Miz Characters:
1. Eponine
2. Marius
3. Gavroche
4. Young Cosette
5. Jean Valjean
My Fav. Songs from LM
1. On My Own
2. A Little Fall of Rain
3. I Dreamed a Dream
4. A Heart Full of Love
5. In My Life
JANUARY 18th, 1996
I did well last night. I made callbacks too. BOY and Tony didn't. It was a pretty normal day. BOY ignored me and hasn't called. I suppose it's really over...again! Tonight is callbacks. I don't even know the play so I hope I just get a part.
JANUARY 18th, 1998
Well, it was a long week. We actually had a snow day on Thurs. (the first in, I heard, 23 years) and much to Ryanne's dismay, BOYFRIEND 2 was basically around 24/7.
This weekend started Fri. night after I auditioned for Sweeney Todd.
I'm listening to my tape of when me and BOY went over GIRL's. Guess what! It was a snow day today! I also heard on the radio that tomorrow's cancelled! This is great! I just wish BOY would call.
Ah, another journal, another crush. It's all getting so monotonous. I wonder if BOY will still be my main squeeze in the next journal. This is my third journal and second year of journalling. That's an average of two books per year.
FRIENDS:
1. Tessa Kinney
2. Craig Meland
3. Julie Leo
FAVORITE PLACES:
1. Cedar Point
2. Sea World
3. Boston Mills Ski Resort
FAVORITE SONGS
1. On My Own
2. A Little Fall of Rain
3. All That She Wants Is Another Baby
Are you, as a reader, getting bored? What can I do different in this new journal?
UPDATE:
age: 15
weight: 107
height: 5'3"
eyes: mud
hair: dirty blonde/red, curly
other: still got short nails, and braces
fav. teachers: Mr. Mercer, Mr. Niforos
fav. rides: Disaster Transport, Iron Dragon
career: actress or dolphin trainer
college: Bowling Green State University
interests: acting, roller coasters, singing, dolphins
fav. singer: Frances Ruffelle
fav. show: SeaQuest DSV
fav. character: Lucas Wolenczak
fav. play: Les Miserables
fav. character: Eponine
fav. movie: The Breakfast Club
fav. character: Andy
MY GOALS (short-term)
1. Make it into "Working"
2. Get my black in Ski Club
3. Make it into "To Kill a Mockingbird"
LONG-TERM GOALS
1. be in a major theatre production (Phantom/Les Miz)
2. work at Cedar Point
3. work at Sea World
My Fav. Les Miz Characters:
1. Eponine
2. Marius
3. Gavroche
4. Young Cosette
5. Jean Valjean
My Fav. Songs from LM
1. On My Own
2. A Little Fall of Rain
3. I Dreamed a Dream
4. A Heart Full of Love
5. In My Life
JANUARY 18th, 1996
I did well last night. I made callbacks too. BOY and Tony didn't. It was a pretty normal day. BOY ignored me and hasn't called. I suppose it's really over...again! Tonight is callbacks. I don't even know the play so I hope I just get a part.
JANUARY 18th, 1998
Well, it was a long week. We actually had a snow day on Thurs. (the first in, I heard, 23 years) and much to Ryanne's dismay, BOYFRIEND 2 was basically around 24/7.
This weekend started Fri. night after I auditioned for Sweeney Todd.
January 16, 2011
JANUARY 17th, 1994, 1996
JANUARY 17th, 1994
I went to Cedar Point with BOY and his parents. Me and him had so much fun! We visited some food president guy, and John Hildebrant and Janice Lifke. They gave us tons of stuff. Then we ate at Pizza Hut. I took pictures at the Raptor and the waiter at Pizza Hut. BOY and I left notes to the waiter on our table. Before CP, they dropped BOY and I off at Sandusky Mall. We pretended we lived there and said hi to all these strangers.
He said when he listens to "On My Own" (his 2nd fav. song) he thinks of me.
JANUARY 17th, 1996
Tonight I try out for Brigadoon!
I went to Cedar Point with BOY and his parents. Me and him had so much fun! We visited some food president guy, and John Hildebrant and Janice Lifke. They gave us tons of stuff. Then we ate at Pizza Hut. I took pictures at the Raptor and the waiter at Pizza Hut. BOY and I left notes to the waiter on our table. Before CP, they dropped BOY and I off at Sandusky Mall. We pretended we lived there and said hi to all these strangers.
He said when he listens to "On My Own" (his 2nd fav. song) he thinks of me.
JANUARY 17th, 1996
Tonight I try out for Brigadoon!
JANUARY 16th, 1994, 1996
JANUARY 16th, 1994
We went over BOY's. He's got a nice house, nice parents, two cool older brothers and a cute little dog. His mom gave us Cedar Point cups. As usual, we ignored GIRL and talked about roller coasters. BOY showed us his room. It's covered with Cedar Point stuff. I can't believe this family of Point lovers existed and I didn't even know about it! They have signs all over that they stole from CP. I wish I lived there, it's heaven!
JANUARY 16th, 1996
BOY (I heard) went crawling back to Jen Cook. I don't think she took him back.
After school I went to Matt's for awhile. Then we went up to the high school at about 4:30. We met up with Mr. Rizer and helped him prepare for the "Brigadoon" auditions at 6:00. Then we ordered pizza. Soon, Drew came ad Womack and Katie and Sharon and Julie and everyone. BOY was so nervous. I would've liked to tell him good luck. I hung out with everybody in the halls (the auditions were closed this year). Justin let me wear his coat. I'm trying out tomorrow. When I got home, my dad said BOY had called. What does he want?! He confuses me so badly!!
We went over BOY's. He's got a nice house, nice parents, two cool older brothers and a cute little dog. His mom gave us Cedar Point cups. As usual, we ignored GIRL and talked about roller coasters. BOY showed us his room. It's covered with Cedar Point stuff. I can't believe this family of Point lovers existed and I didn't even know about it! They have signs all over that they stole from CP. I wish I lived there, it's heaven!
JANUARY 16th, 1996
BOY (I heard) went crawling back to Jen Cook. I don't think she took him back.
After school I went to Matt's for awhile. Then we went up to the high school at about 4:30. We met up with Mr. Rizer and helped him prepare for the "Brigadoon" auditions at 6:00. Then we ordered pizza. Soon, Drew came ad Womack and Katie and Sharon and Julie and everyone. BOY was so nervous. I would've liked to tell him good luck. I hung out with everybody in the halls (the auditions were closed this year). Justin let me wear his coat. I'm trying out tomorrow. When I got home, my dad said BOY had called. What does he want?! He confuses me so badly!!
JANUARY 15th, 1993, 1994, 1996
JANUARY 15th, 1993
Ski Club was AWESOME!! I can't wait till next week. First we had our lesson (beginning) with Greg. We got in a line and side-stepped a few feet up the hill. I stood next to YKW. We scooped snow on our skis and kicked it up into the air. YKW got in trouble for that.
"Now, I don't appreciate that here, OK?" said the lady to YKW.
"Sure." (YKW)
As soon as she turned her back, he kicked up more snow.
"I don't appreciate that, now!" I said.
"I know! Did you hear her? What a nerd!" He said to me!!
We each took turns sliding down the hill towards Greg (the instructor). He said to YKW "You're shaking like a drug addict! Calm down!"
After our lesson we got to ski alone. I stayed with Ryan and YKW. Ryan's butt never left the snow. It was great to see he wasn't good at everything.
"I don't think you wanna come this high." YKW said to me. I looked down.
"You're right. Bye."
After awhile, Mr. Schneider said Ryan, YKW and I could take the ski life to the top of the hill. I rode with Mr. Schneider and Ryan and YKW rode behind us. It was nerve-wracking but fun. Then we swerved down the hill. I went up 4 more times. I didn't see YKW until...
It was a couple minutes to 9:30. We had to be on the bus by then. I couldn't find anyone. But then I saw Ryan and YKW.
"Where's everyone? We gotta go!"
"I don't know, calm down, we got awhile." (YKW)
We watched Ryan slowly packing his bag. YKW grew impatient. "I'm not waiting. Come on!"
I followed him out the door. We walked to the bus stop.
"Wait, shh..." we listened to announcements.
"See, it's only 2nd call." We walked to the driveway. "The bus isn't here yet. Come on." He ran back dropping his gloves. I picked them up as he skidded to a stop. Shoving them in his hand I ran. He ran ahead.
"Thanks."
Back in, Ryan was STILL packing his bag.
"We're going to be left behind, I know it. I know it."
"Go wait by Mrs. Pruchniki!"
"WHERE, WHERE?!"
"Over there!"
"Oh, thank goodness!"
In school, though:
1st period we were hiding YKW's books. He didn't get mad. Mrs. Weigel took away my bouncy ball. Scott was in the hall. I peeked at him.
"Is Scott out there?" (YKW)
"No, he ran away." (me)
"Shut up!"
6th period YKW was passing out posters.
"Wilderbeast!" he handed me mind.
"The one and only!" I took it.
While we were waiting in the cafeteria for Ski Club, YKW kept looking at me. ? Every time I'd look at him, he'd be looking back. ??
JANUARY 15th, 1994
I slept at GIRL's. Her parents are mean and fight a lot. We talked to BOY on the phone until 11:30. Mostly he talked to GIRL while I listened, pretending to be asleep.
JANUARY 15th, 1996
It was hell at work today. They stuck me at Kid Check for "a second" which lasted 2 hours. I was supposed to be Chuck E. but since I was "busy" they had the new girl Nicole do it. The line to get in was out the door. Later I had fun working with Steve Schleigh cutting pizzas.
When I got home BOY called. We were talking fine and then he just said:
"This isn't working out."
"What isn't?"
"This friendship."
So basically he dumped me as a friend and hung up in a huff. ??
Ski Club was AWESOME!! I can't wait till next week. First we had our lesson (beginning) with Greg. We got in a line and side-stepped a few feet up the hill. I stood next to YKW. We scooped snow on our skis and kicked it up into the air. YKW got in trouble for that.
"Now, I don't appreciate that here, OK?" said the lady to YKW.
"Sure." (YKW)
As soon as she turned her back, he kicked up more snow.
"I don't appreciate that, now!" I said.
"I know! Did you hear her? What a nerd!" He said to me!!
We each took turns sliding down the hill towards Greg (the instructor). He said to YKW "You're shaking like a drug addict! Calm down!"
After our lesson we got to ski alone. I stayed with Ryan and YKW. Ryan's butt never left the snow. It was great to see he wasn't good at everything.
"I don't think you wanna come this high." YKW said to me. I looked down.
"You're right. Bye."
After awhile, Mr. Schneider said Ryan, YKW and I could take the ski life to the top of the hill. I rode with Mr. Schneider and Ryan and YKW rode behind us. It was nerve-wracking but fun. Then we swerved down the hill. I went up 4 more times. I didn't see YKW until...
It was a couple minutes to 9:30. We had to be on the bus by then. I couldn't find anyone. But then I saw Ryan and YKW.
"Where's everyone? We gotta go!"
"I don't know, calm down, we got awhile." (YKW)
We watched Ryan slowly packing his bag. YKW grew impatient. "I'm not waiting. Come on!"
I followed him out the door. We walked to the bus stop.
"Wait, shh..." we listened to announcements.
"See, it's only 2nd call." We walked to the driveway. "The bus isn't here yet. Come on." He ran back dropping his gloves. I picked them up as he skidded to a stop. Shoving them in his hand I ran. He ran ahead.
"Thanks."
Back in, Ryan was STILL packing his bag.
"We're going to be left behind, I know it. I know it."
"Go wait by Mrs. Pruchniki!"
"WHERE, WHERE?!"
"Over there!"
"Oh, thank goodness!"
In school, though:
1st period we were hiding YKW's books. He didn't get mad. Mrs. Weigel took away my bouncy ball. Scott was in the hall. I peeked at him.
"Is Scott out there?" (YKW)
"No, he ran away." (me)
"Shut up!"
6th period YKW was passing out posters.
"Wilderbeast!" he handed me mind.
"The one and only!" I took it.
While we were waiting in the cafeteria for Ski Club, YKW kept looking at me. ? Every time I'd look at him, he'd be looking back. ??
JANUARY 15th, 1994
I slept at GIRL's. Her parents are mean and fight a lot. We talked to BOY on the phone until 11:30. Mostly he talked to GIRL while I listened, pretending to be asleep.
JANUARY 15th, 1996
It was hell at work today. They stuck me at Kid Check for "a second" which lasted 2 hours. I was supposed to be Chuck E. but since I was "busy" they had the new girl Nicole do it. The line to get in was out the door. Later I had fun working with Steve Schleigh cutting pizzas.
When I got home BOY called. We were talking fine and then he just said:
"This isn't working out."
"What isn't?"
"This friendship."
So basically he dumped me as a friend and hung up in a huff. ??
January 14, 2011
JANUARY 14th, 1993, 1994, 1996
JANUARY 14th, 1993
Today Scott was absent. In 1st period art, I brought a bouncy ball (I found in the attic) but we didn't use it. We're waiting for Friday (tomorrow). YKW got sent in the hall again for switching seats. I think Mrs. Weigel just wanted an excuse to punish him. Me and a few others switched but she didn't care. We were hiding YKW's books but he didn't really mind.
6th period Mr. Schellentrager didn't really care that we misbehaved. We wrote unreasonable constitutions.
1) Who makes the laws? (the mailmen)
2) Title? (the Law Guys)
3) Term of Office? (every passing of Hailey's Comet)
4) How chosen? (winner of Bingo tournament)
5) How many people? (5)
I had to walk with tons of books to my dentist appointment. Tomorrow - Ski Club finally!
JANUARY 14th, 1994
The usual. Yesterday we got our seats moved in math class. I like them.
GIRL flirts with BOY a lot. He had to stay after for Forensics but he came outside and waited with me till my bus came. When I left, so did he.
I'm trying out for "To Kill A Mockingbird" at the Beck Center. The same one 4th period is going to see! It would be so cool if I made it!
JANUARY 14th, 1996
It was the wrong Scott. But I DID see the real Scott when he came in at 4.
Then I came home and me, Sharon, BOY, Julie and Christy Chambers (and, and Matt, to) all went to Thinker's. Then we hung out at Julie's house. We watched Nat'l Lampoon's Xmas Vacation and ordered pizza. Julie, Sharon, and Matt (Christy went home before we came to Julie's) went to get the pizza, leaving me with BOY. I knew what he wanted to do, so I stared, stone-faced at the TV, sitting in an individual chair. He didn't try anything.
Today Scott was absent. In 1st period art, I brought a bouncy ball (I found in the attic) but we didn't use it. We're waiting for Friday (tomorrow). YKW got sent in the hall again for switching seats. I think Mrs. Weigel just wanted an excuse to punish him. Me and a few others switched but she didn't care. We were hiding YKW's books but he didn't really mind.
6th period Mr. Schellentrager didn't really care that we misbehaved. We wrote unreasonable constitutions.
1) Who makes the laws? (the mailmen)
2) Title? (the Law Guys)
3) Term of Office? (every passing of Hailey's Comet)
4) How chosen? (winner of Bingo tournament)
5) How many people? (5)
I had to walk with tons of books to my dentist appointment. Tomorrow - Ski Club finally!
JANUARY 14th, 1994
The usual. Yesterday we got our seats moved in math class. I like them.
GIRL flirts with BOY a lot. He had to stay after for Forensics but he came outside and waited with me till my bus came. When I left, so did he.
I'm trying out for "To Kill A Mockingbird" at the Beck Center. The same one 4th period is going to see! It would be so cool if I made it!
JANUARY 14th, 1996
It was the wrong Scott. But I DID see the real Scott when he came in at 4.
Then I came home and me, Sharon, BOY, Julie and Christy Chambers (and, and Matt, to) all went to Thinker's. Then we hung out at Julie's house. We watched Nat'l Lampoon's Xmas Vacation and ordered pizza. Julie, Sharon, and Matt (Christy went home before we came to Julie's) went to get the pizza, leaving me with BOY. I knew what he wanted to do, so I stared, stone-faced at the TV, sitting in an individual chair. He didn't try anything.
January 13, 2011
JANUARY 13th, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996
JANUARY 13th, 1993
Today was GREAT! Here's why:
1st Period I had to sit by Scott. Boo! But...I had Christine's two bouncy balls. We had so much fun throwing it around the room and Mrs. Weigel didn't even notice! I kept going to sharpen my pencil at the front of the room, while Scott threw it to me. YKW was in the hall, so Scott went to the hall and threw it at him. Jessica Holland found it in the cafeteria. Then...WHAM! It hit the horse poster and Mrs. Weigel noticed the sound. Because no one confessed (it was Scott, though), we have no talking tomorrow. Oh, and when I told YKW to grab the ball from Jess Holland, he did it!
5th period science. No Butthead for me! I got to work with Christina!
6th period Mrs. Offut. The whistle woman. She blows it when we get "out of hand" and Mr. Reed comes. We were so BAD. When we watched a filmstrip about Ben Franklin, Scott and YKW made shadow puppets. When a picture of Ben came on, I made a finger shadow sticking up Ben's nose. [EDITOR'S NOTE: A drawn picture of the shadow finger bit was included in the margin] I probably gotten written up for that. YKW laughed SO HARD! He said "That was awesome!". Then he said:
"Can I get a drink?"
"No." Mrs. Offut
"That's child abuse!" (me)
"I'm not a child!" (YKW)
"OK, teen abuse." (me)
"Student/teacher abuse." (YKW)
Mike Smith threw a huge spitball on YKW's shoulder. So YKW stuffed a ton of paper in his mouth - but Mr. Reed came in. Oh, YKW moved into Erin Lanigan's seat in front of Melissa Hill who was in front of me. So when we looked back at Scott, he always saw me. Even if I fo get detention, I'll be with him. He threw a little spitball at the screen. You could hear it smack.
At lunch, there was a boy's underwear in the hall. Everyone was laughing.
I may have Michelle Gaspar over here instead of at her house.
JANUARY 13th, 1994
Ski Club was fun. We got on the right bus. (the prep one, not the snob one) I sat with Christine and listened to her walkman.
I skiied with Kourtini the whole day pretty much except for the end. She went off to find Michelle Magnone. I went to Buttermilk. Lindsay, Lisa O'Hearn, and Katie were in the line. Lindsay called me over. Lisa and her actually argued over who'd get to ride with me! (no brag!) Lindsay won. We talked about old sleepovers and Ninja Turtles. At the top, I skiied down. At the bottom, I looked for Kourtini. They invited me up again. Lisa got to sit by me. All she could talk about was her 4th grade sleepover where her sister slapped me and we all got in a fight.
When I was sitting, later, waiting for the bus, Lindsay and crew came over. So did YKW. That's when I walked away.
JANUARY 13th, 1995
It's taken ALL WEEK to get over this massive depression! Heinrich wasn't here Mon, Tues or Weds.
Erin Hixon likes Ribs and I think he likes her. He writes her notes and asks her to call him. I like Erin. We helped Tony with his computer on our usual walks around the hall 7th period. I like Tony, too.
Tonight I saw Drew, Sabrina and Dan at Falls Video.
JANUARY 13th, 1996
Forensics was OK. I ignored BOY all day (except for the Power Round when I showed him my Mental Health Hospital pen) and laughed with Tom n' Eric. I think George Green likes me. And then there's Lowell Fitz. Suze told him my name last week (after he'd asked) and this week he said my name as every other word in his sentences. I got 3rd place in an out of district competition, which is great! Compared to Wesley (the Cat in the Hat) and Lowell, BOY is a first-class SNOB! I even had a round with the Puppy and we were talking about what a jerk he was. Matt O'Brien was there too (the "Guy Who Looks Like Tony"). He saw me from across the room and was staring at me while talking to his girlfriend. Oh wow!
Then I came home and went to work. It was packed. Holly was stressed out. Matt (the other Chuck E.) was there and we did the shows together, with me as Helen Henny. It's more fun that way. Other than that it was kinda dull for me. I cleaned the Chuck E. room from top to bottom. And me and Molly did the dance a million times (the "We're Having a Party!" dance) because she was leaving to go back to college tomorrow. I have to work 11-5 tomorrow. Scott's working 12-8.
Today was GREAT! Here's why:
1st Period I had to sit by Scott. Boo! But...I had Christine's two bouncy balls. We had so much fun throwing it around the room and Mrs. Weigel didn't even notice! I kept going to sharpen my pencil at the front of the room, while Scott threw it to me. YKW was in the hall, so Scott went to the hall and threw it at him. Jessica Holland found it in the cafeteria. Then...WHAM! It hit the horse poster and Mrs. Weigel noticed the sound. Because no one confessed (it was Scott, though), we have no talking tomorrow. Oh, and when I told YKW to grab the ball from Jess Holland, he did it!
5th period science. No Butthead for me! I got to work with Christina!
6th period Mrs. Offut. The whistle woman. She blows it when we get "out of hand" and Mr. Reed comes. We were so BAD. When we watched a filmstrip about Ben Franklin, Scott and YKW made shadow puppets. When a picture of Ben came on, I made a finger shadow sticking up Ben's nose. [EDITOR'S NOTE: A drawn picture of the shadow finger bit was included in the margin] I probably gotten written up for that. YKW laughed SO HARD! He said "That was awesome!". Then he said:
"Can I get a drink?"
"No." Mrs. Offut
"That's child abuse!" (me)
"I'm not a child!" (YKW)
"OK, teen abuse." (me)
"Student/teacher abuse." (YKW)
Mike Smith threw a huge spitball on YKW's shoulder. So YKW stuffed a ton of paper in his mouth - but Mr. Reed came in. Oh, YKW moved into Erin Lanigan's seat in front of Melissa Hill who was in front of me. So when we looked back at Scott, he always saw me. Even if I fo get detention, I'll be with him. He threw a little spitball at the screen. You could hear it smack.
At lunch, there was a boy's underwear in the hall. Everyone was laughing.
I may have Michelle Gaspar over here instead of at her house.
JANUARY 13th, 1994
Ski Club was fun. We got on the right bus. (the prep one, not the snob one) I sat with Christine and listened to her walkman.
I skiied with Kourtini the whole day pretty much except for the end. She went off to find Michelle Magnone. I went to Buttermilk. Lindsay, Lisa O'Hearn, and Katie were in the line. Lindsay called me over. Lisa and her actually argued over who'd get to ride with me! (no brag!) Lindsay won. We talked about old sleepovers and Ninja Turtles. At the top, I skiied down. At the bottom, I looked for Kourtini. They invited me up again. Lisa got to sit by me. All she could talk about was her 4th grade sleepover where her sister slapped me and we all got in a fight.
When I was sitting, later, waiting for the bus, Lindsay and crew came over. So did YKW. That's when I walked away.
JANUARY 13th, 1995
It's taken ALL WEEK to get over this massive depression! Heinrich wasn't here Mon, Tues or Weds.
Erin Hixon likes Ribs and I think he likes her. He writes her notes and asks her to call him. I like Erin. We helped Tony with his computer on our usual walks around the hall 7th period. I like Tony, too.
Tonight I saw Drew, Sabrina and Dan at Falls Video.
JANUARY 13th, 1996
Forensics was OK. I ignored BOY all day (except for the Power Round when I showed him my Mental Health Hospital pen) and laughed with Tom n' Eric. I think George Green likes me. And then there's Lowell Fitz. Suze told him my name last week (after he'd asked) and this week he said my name as every other word in his sentences. I got 3rd place in an out of district competition, which is great! Compared to Wesley (the Cat in the Hat) and Lowell, BOY is a first-class SNOB! I even had a round with the Puppy and we were talking about what a jerk he was. Matt O'Brien was there too (the "Guy Who Looks Like Tony"). He saw me from across the room and was staring at me while talking to his girlfriend. Oh wow!
Then I came home and went to work. It was packed. Holly was stressed out. Matt (the other Chuck E.) was there and we did the shows together, with me as Helen Henny. It's more fun that way. Other than that it was kinda dull for me. I cleaned the Chuck E. room from top to bottom. And me and Molly did the dance a million times (the "We're Having a Party!" dance) because she was leaving to go back to college tomorrow. I have to work 11-5 tomorrow. Scott's working 12-8.
January 12, 2011
JANUARY 12th 1994, 1996
JANUARY 12th, 1994
Nothing much. I'm allowed to go to Cedar Point, and sled, and go over BOY's. Does BOY like GIRL? I don't know. She's in lust with him now. It seems that whenever we pass him in the hall, he looks at her.
JANUARY 12th, 1996
I wore my tiny tee and vest and my hair down. It's a new record for hair-wearing-down! I didn't talk to BOY a lot, but he threw a semi-hissy fit when Julie said I wasn't going to Pep Band. Julie was wrong and he overreacted. So I went to Pep Band, saw the Hecker's baby (with hair!) hung out with the drummers, hung out with Sharon and Megan McManus (Megan says Ashby's saying we're going out and that he loves me. AHHHH!) and told Drew that we'd do the band thing for the Pop Concert. BOY never came. And afterwards - Elicia went out with other people, Matt did too, BOY wasn't home, and Julie said she was sick. So we moped around Sharon's house until 11:00 or so.
Nothing much. I'm allowed to go to Cedar Point, and sled, and go over BOY's. Does BOY like GIRL? I don't know. She's in lust with him now. It seems that whenever we pass him in the hall, he looks at her.
JANUARY 12th, 1996
I wore my tiny tee and vest and my hair down. It's a new record for hair-wearing-down! I didn't talk to BOY a lot, but he threw a semi-hissy fit when Julie said I wasn't going to Pep Band. Julie was wrong and he overreacted. So I went to Pep Band, saw the Hecker's baby (with hair!) hung out with the drummers, hung out with Sharon and Megan McManus (Megan says Ashby's saying we're going out and that he loves me. AHHHH!) and told Drew that we'd do the band thing for the Pop Concert. BOY never came. And afterwards - Elicia went out with other people, Matt did too, BOY wasn't home, and Julie said she was sick. So we moped around Sharon's house until 11:00 or so.
January 11, 2011
JANUARY 11th, 1993, 1994, 1998
JANUARY 11th, 1993
Today in 1st period, Mrs. Weigel came back from Delaware (?). I got moves away from Christine Miller all the way across the room to sit by...
Scott Chrise! Again. Boo! There's one highlight. Right next to me is YKW. When I got moved, he didn't say anything particularly mean. Nothing at all. When class REALLY began I moved back to my old seat. YKW moved to mine.
This weekend I hope to go to Michelle's. Maybe after Pom-Pom.
I found another one of YKW's papers. It was stuffed in a cabinet and was just old notes he'd never use. I'm pretty sure of that. Michelle is fun to talk about YKW with.
JANUARY 11th, 1994
We're obviously still friends. Same notes, he even copied a picture of the Demon Drop to hang in my locker.
He's going to Cedar Point to visit his executive friends on Mon and invited me. That's awesome! I hope I'm allowed!
JANUARY 11th, 1998
Heather and I worked a fun and fast 9-5 shift with Eric, on Sat. Then we flew (meaning drove fast) to BG. I slept over her apartment, took a shower and she worked 11-6 while I unpacked my stuff and waited until BOYFRIEND 2 knocked on my door at 1am. Ryanne came back this morning after BOYFRIEND 2 was gone and I was done with my shower. I think she mentioned she's staying at home tonight, too.
Today in 1st period, Mrs. Weigel came back from Delaware (?). I got moves away from Christine Miller all the way across the room to sit by...
Scott Chrise! Again. Boo! There's one highlight. Right next to me is YKW. When I got moved, he didn't say anything particularly mean. Nothing at all. When class REALLY began I moved back to my old seat. YKW moved to mine.
This weekend I hope to go to Michelle's. Maybe after Pom-Pom.
I found another one of YKW's papers. It was stuffed in a cabinet and was just old notes he'd never use. I'm pretty sure of that. Michelle is fun to talk about YKW with.
JANUARY 11th, 1994
We're obviously still friends. Same notes, he even copied a picture of the Demon Drop to hang in my locker.
He's going to Cedar Point to visit his executive friends on Mon and invited me. That's awesome! I hope I'm allowed!
JANUARY 11th, 1998
Heather and I worked a fun and fast 9-5 shift with Eric, on Sat. Then we flew (meaning drove fast) to BG. I slept over her apartment, took a shower and she worked 11-6 while I unpacked my stuff and waited until BOYFRIEND 2 knocked on my door at 1am. Ryanne came back this morning after BOYFRIEND 2 was gone and I was done with my shower. I think she mentioned she's staying at home tonight, too.
January 10, 2011
JANUARY 10th, 1995, 1996
JANUARY 10th, 1995
Katie got it.
JANUARY 10th, 1996
BOY called last night and I just let the barriers down. I told him that I still liked him but I just wanted to be friends for now. I said he should be happy. After awhile, he cheered up. I also confronted him about the whole "you only came back because Sharon doesn't like you" thing and (of course) he denied it. I just let it go.
Today I wore my hair down all day and what a difference. I was noticed.
BOY wasn't there in the morning. 1st period Julie was sick, but refused to go home. 3rd period I think Justin's too popular to ever like me. 5th period Kirt talked to me a lot more today. I think it was the hair. 6th period we started watching "Glory" a movie based on the Civil War. It has Cary Elwes (Robin Hood, Men in Tights) in it. BOY gave me a note after 5th period. It said he was having a bad day, but he's trying to lighten up. 7th period, Ashby got suspended!! He punched Tom Burke during gym because he let his temper get away with him.
Tom + Eric, me, Heather, Holly, Suze and Jeff stayed after for Forensics coaching. Mike Ditzel coached us and he drove me home.
Tonight we're going to the library.
Katie got it.
JANUARY 10th, 1996
BOY called last night and I just let the barriers down. I told him that I still liked him but I just wanted to be friends for now. I said he should be happy. After awhile, he cheered up. I also confronted him about the whole "you only came back because Sharon doesn't like you" thing and (of course) he denied it. I just let it go.
Today I wore my hair down all day and what a difference. I was noticed.
BOY wasn't there in the morning. 1st period Julie was sick, but refused to go home. 3rd period I think Justin's too popular to ever like me. 5th period Kirt talked to me a lot more today. I think it was the hair. 6th period we started watching "Glory" a movie based on the Civil War. It has Cary Elwes (Robin Hood, Men in Tights) in it. BOY gave me a note after 5th period. It said he was having a bad day, but he's trying to lighten up. 7th period, Ashby got suspended!! He punched Tom Burke during gym because he let his temper get away with him.
Tom + Eric, me, Heather, Holly, Suze and Jeff stayed after for Forensics coaching. Mike Ditzel coached us and he drove me home.
Tonight we're going to the library.
January 9, 2011
JANUARY 9th, 1994, 1996, 1997
JANUARY 9th, 1994
GIRL said she talked to BOY at PSR. He said Brent Konzel asked him if he was going out with GIRL. When GIRL asked him if he liked me he said:
"I don't think this is the time or the place to talk about that."
"These are my friends, besides, they don't know her."
"Well, I really don't know how I feel, I told her that."
I'm so confused. I thought he liked me. I guess he doesn't.
JANUARY 9th, 1996
Yesterday -
After 6th period, I walked with BOY. Then, after school me and Julie went to McDonald's. then to her house to type. BOY kissed her this weekend and now she likes him. She called him while I was typing and gave the phone to me when her mom called her. BOY told me about a picture he had of his naked butt and how he wants it in the yearbook. I laughed. I heard Julie when she got back on the phone say "No...uh Jess? Are you still going out with BOY?" He apparently thought I was.
Then, at 7:00 I went to Chuck E. Cheese's to learn the new Live Show dance. I was partners with Holly and it was fun.
TODAY -
BOY was there again in the morning. I kinda ignored him and he brightened when Sharon came in.
Justin and I have been being nice to each other a lot lately. When I asked Julie who I should ask to an upcoming dance, she said "Justin. I think he'd go for ya."
At lunch I sat by Cale for awhile. Greg says that BOY went out and bought ANOTHER Pamela Anderson poster to RIVAL the one I bought him for Xmas. What the heck? He feels he has to buy a better Xmas present for himself than I did?
After 6th period he walked with me and gave me a note that said, "Have you lost interest in being my friend?" I wrote back saying, "I know you only came back because Sharon rejected you." He's supposed to call me tonight. After school Ashby came up to me at Matt's locker. I kinda brushed him off too.
JANUARY 9th, 1997
Justin keeps acting stranger and stranger everyday. Today, for example, he said he'd had a dream about me and Julie and our "Fearsome Threesome." And he talked about how cool Michigan will be, and that we could get a room together. But he's still in love with his little girlfriend. All in all, I enjoy the attention he gives me.
Last night I worked at Lone Star for the first time. As a hostess, I bus tables and seat people. I saw Maggie and Laura Reese, Liz and Carrie and I heard Geisala Franz works there. As for guys...Chuck E. Cheese takes the cake there. The atmosphere at Lone Star isn't quite as fun and casual. Maybe it'll become that way for me someday. But no one can compare to Scott Olinek!
GIRL said she talked to BOY at PSR. He said Brent Konzel asked him if he was going out with GIRL. When GIRL asked him if he liked me he said:
"I don't think this is the time or the place to talk about that."
"These are my friends, besides, they don't know her."
"Well, I really don't know how I feel, I told her that."
I'm so confused. I thought he liked me. I guess he doesn't.
JANUARY 9th, 1996
Yesterday -
After 6th period, I walked with BOY. Then, after school me and Julie went to McDonald's. then to her house to type. BOY kissed her this weekend and now she likes him. She called him while I was typing and gave the phone to me when her mom called her. BOY told me about a picture he had of his naked butt and how he wants it in the yearbook. I laughed. I heard Julie when she got back on the phone say "No...uh Jess? Are you still going out with BOY?" He apparently thought I was.
Then, at 7:00 I went to Chuck E. Cheese's to learn the new Live Show dance. I was partners with Holly and it was fun.
TODAY -
BOY was there again in the morning. I kinda ignored him and he brightened when Sharon came in.
Justin and I have been being nice to each other a lot lately. When I asked Julie who I should ask to an upcoming dance, she said "Justin. I think he'd go for ya."
At lunch I sat by Cale for awhile. Greg says that BOY went out and bought ANOTHER Pamela Anderson poster to RIVAL the one I bought him for Xmas. What the heck? He feels he has to buy a better Xmas present for himself than I did?
After 6th period he walked with me and gave me a note that said, "Have you lost interest in being my friend?" I wrote back saying, "I know you only came back because Sharon rejected you." He's supposed to call me tonight. After school Ashby came up to me at Matt's locker. I kinda brushed him off too.
JANUARY 9th, 1997
Justin keeps acting stranger and stranger everyday. Today, for example, he said he'd had a dream about me and Julie and our "Fearsome Threesome." And he talked about how cool Michigan will be, and that we could get a room together. But he's still in love with his little girlfriend. All in all, I enjoy the attention he gives me.
Last night I worked at Lone Star for the first time. As a hostess, I bus tables and seat people. I saw Maggie and Laura Reese, Liz and Carrie and I heard Geisala Franz works there. As for guys...Chuck E. Cheese takes the cake there. The atmosphere at Lone Star isn't quite as fun and casual. Maybe it'll become that way for me someday. But no one can compare to Scott Olinek!
January 8, 2011
JANUARY 8th, 1994
JANUARY 8th, 1994
I called BOY, he wasn't home. Later, he called me. We talked normal. I didn't bring up the note.
When he and GIRL came over, we ate ice cream and pop. We watched "Clue" (BOY brought it) and my Cedar Point video. I didn't pay much attention to GIRL. BOY said we can come over next weekend, but I know GIRL won't want to. Me and BOY laughed about everything. He said he doesn't LIKE like Michelle and wished she'd leave him alone.
Let's see. Walter, Ben, Paul, Shannon, Holly, Jason Skinner, and many others have all said "BOY likes you. BOY wants to go out with you." He says he doesn't know how he feels. I'm getting impatient. Everytime I look into those eyes, it gets harder!
Pom-Pom was hard. It was boring and I couldn't wait to get home and get BOY over. All we did was march. I've fallen into this little group again.
I'm so confused about BOY!
I called BOY, he wasn't home. Later, he called me. We talked normal. I didn't bring up the note.
When he and GIRL came over, we ate ice cream and pop. We watched "Clue" (BOY brought it) and my Cedar Point video. I didn't pay much attention to GIRL. BOY said we can come over next weekend, but I know GIRL won't want to. Me and BOY laughed about everything. He said he doesn't LIKE like Michelle and wished she'd leave him alone.
Let's see. Walter, Ben, Paul, Shannon, Holly, Jason Skinner, and many others have all said "BOY likes you. BOY wants to go out with you." He says he doesn't know how he feels. I'm getting impatient. Everytime I look into those eyes, it gets harder!
Pom-Pom was hard. It was boring and I couldn't wait to get home and get BOY over. All we did was march. I've fallen into this little group again.
I'm so confused about BOY!
January 7, 2011
JANUARY 7th, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 1997, 1998
JANUARY 7th, 1993
Today in 7th period English, Mrs. Gulden said in front of the class that my "Bambi Goes to the Psychiatrist" story was the best written material in the 8th grade. She then helped me with my Reflections. I also overheard Erin Lanigan interviewing Steve Olin:
STEVE OLIN
age - 14
pets - dog
home - Glenbrook
fav. color - black
sports - Basketball, Ftball, Baseball
rest. - Nam-Wah Express
Ski Club is cancelled again!
I get to be in the St. Patrick's Day parade - Pom-Pom. I would say I love school but the last time I said that I almost died of embarassment. See November 13.
JANUARY 7th, 1994
BOY wrote me a note that said "What's going out mean?" I wrote the answer at lunch. Holly S. came over, what the heck? I let her write something. Then Alison. Then Lisa. Then Julie. Then Tessa. Then Ryan Thomas. I thought it was funny at first and let Lisa give it to him 5th period. Then I thought about it, it wasn't very nice. I felt bad so I wrote an apology note. It said "I'm sorry. I like you. I don't know how you feel about me, but I guess it doesn't matter since you'll probably never speak to me again." or something. He wrote back saying he's not mad and he doesn't know how he feels. Him and GIRL are coming over tomorrow. Mrs. Hecker played the accompanyments WAY too slow! I'll get Mrs. Crandall to.
JANUARY 7th, 1995
He didn't tell us!! All day I was wondering why. He sent Mrs. Mercer down to tell me to keep my mind on Forensics. (Katie wasn't there) Well I got 3rd place and a trophy! I called Katie and we talked about everything. We talked about how the one who doesn't make it will probably be the understudy for the other. So we promised that who ever made it would miss one day so the other can kiss Jason.
JANUARY 7th, 1996
Oh yeah - Matt says BOY likes Sharon and because she doesn't like him he's crawling back to me. I knew that. He's liked her since September. I was just convieniently there. I've decided to just be friends with him. Also - BOY called just as I was leaving. He asked what happened. I said "I'm leaving - so I'll make this quick. I still like you, but I hate boys and I'm not ready to jump into another relationship. BOY really screwed me up. So don't worry, you're not forgotten - I'll call you."
Today I worked 1-6. I saw Scott. Warren sent me to relieve him at merchandise. He brightened when he saw me. And he playfully yelled at me. Then I got put into Kid Check, so I only saw him a few other times. The times I glanced at him - he seemed happy to see me. I don't know. He's cute.
JANUARY 7th, 1997
First day back at school. Nothing new there.
The BOY thing fell through. I waited till Fri. assuming he'd be free, but he spent his last night with his girlfriend, Jessi. But, he told me he's sick of girls tieing him down and he wants to be free to date with his girlfriend not minding. I told him that's what I want. He left on Sat. He's coming back for Easter. This isn't over.
BOY and I went to his grandma's and lunch on Sat. Then we went to Border's where he bought a Mystery Science Theater 3000 movie (our latest fad) and to Chuck E's. There, Scott promised me anything I wanted in exchange for me getting his hat from Katie (who kept it after Phil's party).
JANUARY 7th, 1998
Yesterday, Heather, my dad and I went to Cedar Point auditions. I gave it my all while singing "Take Back Your Mink" and "Hopelessly Devoted to You" (they asked for my second song which they hadn't been doing because of the time pressure) and gt called back to dance. Heather didn't get called back so she signed up to be a Berenstein Bear and basically got hired. The dancing was...whoa! REAL dancing. It was fun, but I could hardly follow. When we tried out in 3's, the two on either side of me lost it towards the end and since I kept going, I looked good. I'm not saying this looks promising. But I picked up a regular park application for the summer. If Heather's definitely working there and BOYFRIEND 2 was thinking about it, it could be cool.
Today in 7th period English, Mrs. Gulden said in front of the class that my "Bambi Goes to the Psychiatrist" story was the best written material in the 8th grade. She then helped me with my Reflections. I also overheard Erin Lanigan interviewing Steve Olin:
STEVE OLIN
age - 14
pets - dog
home - Glenbrook
fav. color - black
sports - Basketball, Ftball, Baseball
rest. - Nam-Wah Express
Ski Club is cancelled again!
I get to be in the St. Patrick's Day parade - Pom-Pom. I would say I love school but the last time I said that I almost died of embarassment. See November 13.
JANUARY 7th, 1994
BOY wrote me a note that said "What's going out mean?" I wrote the answer at lunch. Holly S. came over, what the heck? I let her write something. Then Alison. Then Lisa. Then Julie. Then Tessa. Then Ryan Thomas. I thought it was funny at first and let Lisa give it to him 5th period. Then I thought about it, it wasn't very nice. I felt bad so I wrote an apology note. It said "I'm sorry. I like you. I don't know how you feel about me, but I guess it doesn't matter since you'll probably never speak to me again." or something. He wrote back saying he's not mad and he doesn't know how he feels. Him and GIRL are coming over tomorrow. Mrs. Hecker played the accompanyments WAY too slow! I'll get Mrs. Crandall to.
JANUARY 7th, 1995
He didn't tell us!! All day I was wondering why. He sent Mrs. Mercer down to tell me to keep my mind on Forensics. (Katie wasn't there) Well I got 3rd place and a trophy! I called Katie and we talked about everything. We talked about how the one who doesn't make it will probably be the understudy for the other. So we promised that who ever made it would miss one day so the other can kiss Jason.
JANUARY 7th, 1996
Oh yeah - Matt says BOY likes Sharon and because she doesn't like him he's crawling back to me. I knew that. He's liked her since September. I was just convieniently there. I've decided to just be friends with him. Also - BOY called just as I was leaving. He asked what happened. I said "I'm leaving - so I'll make this quick. I still like you, but I hate boys and I'm not ready to jump into another relationship. BOY really screwed me up. So don't worry, you're not forgotten - I'll call you."
Today I worked 1-6. I saw Scott. Warren sent me to relieve him at merchandise. He brightened when he saw me. And he playfully yelled at me. Then I got put into Kid Check, so I only saw him a few other times. The times I glanced at him - he seemed happy to see me. I don't know. He's cute.
JANUARY 7th, 1997
First day back at school. Nothing new there.
The BOY thing fell through. I waited till Fri. assuming he'd be free, but he spent his last night with his girlfriend, Jessi. But, he told me he's sick of girls tieing him down and he wants to be free to date with his girlfriend not minding. I told him that's what I want. He left on Sat. He's coming back for Easter. This isn't over.
BOY and I went to his grandma's and lunch on Sat. Then we went to Border's where he bought a Mystery Science Theater 3000 movie (our latest fad) and to Chuck E's. There, Scott promised me anything I wanted in exchange for me getting his hat from Katie (who kept it after Phil's party).
JANUARY 7th, 1998
Yesterday, Heather, my dad and I went to Cedar Point auditions. I gave it my all while singing "Take Back Your Mink" and "Hopelessly Devoted to You" (they asked for my second song which they hadn't been doing because of the time pressure) and gt called back to dance. Heather didn't get called back so she signed up to be a Berenstein Bear and basically got hired. The dancing was...whoa! REAL dancing. It was fun, but I could hardly follow. When we tried out in 3's, the two on either side of me lost it towards the end and since I kept going, I looked good. I'm not saying this looks promising. But I picked up a regular park application for the summer. If Heather's definitely working there and BOYFRIEND 2 was thinking about it, it could be cool.
January 6, 2011
JANUARY 6TH, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996
JANUARY 6th, 1993
Today in art we had Gummou again (the whole week). Then in 2nd period we worked on our MPV's. I had to go in for Mrs. Petrykowski to check my homework (that I missed cause of the cruise) and she let me do a few problems with Jenny Warchola (who was in for help). Look:
11+14=25, 14+10=24, 24+24=48, 25+25=50, 50+48=98ft.
The perimeter of the garden and the pathway is 98ft! TA-DA!
In 4th period gym, the boys on our volleyball team yelled and jumped in front of us. I touched the ball a couple times, too because Cory (the one man game) Chapman wasn't there.
5th period science we "played" with genecons and circuits. I had to take two quizzes for Mrs. Thompson in morning homeroom.
In 6th period Social Studies, YKW wasn't there. He was in 1st period art though. I didn't see him in first lunch either. We did our "what if we lost" Revolutionary War presentations. I made a poster for our group (Dione Wolfe, Kristen Groffner, Cheryl Boscerello) which brings me to last night. (We got our cruise pictures, went to a book store and went home).
7th period English we did our pre-test in spelling. I got to read the words to the class and I made up new sentences. For pryed, I said "The squirrel pryed open the acorn, but then Jack shot him." Everyone laughed because Jack Holmes hunts animals like squirrels and cats. We did a prompt writing exercise. The topic was, I just ran out of _______? I put air and wrote about someone who died scuba diving.
There's my day. 5 more months until summer vacation.
JANUARY 6th, 1994
GIRL and I brought our cameras to school. I got pictures of Brian Motsay, Keith Soloman, Ryan Rinaldo, Nick Neelis, etc.
BOY lent me the Les Miz book I've wanted forever.
JANUARY 6th, 1995
I tried out today and did great. So did Jason. He's definitely the Music Man. Katie says it's either her, me or Kim for Marion. I think it's her. I doubt I'll be Marion. I really doubt it. I'll find out if I made callbacks tomorrow.
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I made callbacks. Jason is definitely Harold and it's either me or Katie.
Katie and me and Jason were the last to go. Katie and him read, then me and him. I thought I did well. I changed energy levels well. Then Katie and I sang "Till There Was You" again.
JANUARY 6th, 1996
Last night - Elicia called just as my family ad I were going to Golden Corral (Tony, Paul and Ben's new workplace). She invited me to go to the wrestling match. I did. We met Julie there and all sat together. Then, we went to Parson's. Matt and Justin were all watching Dumb and Dumber. We borrowed Matt and Justin and went to Middleburg McDonald's then to Berea McDonald's (where we actually went in and ate). Then we all went back to Justin's and all laid on his bed and talked. Then we moved downstairs to watch Die Hard w/a Vengence. (Oh yeah, Sharon had since come over.) We were all having fun until...
Marc and BOY showed up. BOY sat by Sharon but slowly moved by me. Then, everyone but me and BOY went home. I felt nothing. I kept saying to myself - 'I don't want to date other people' and I do!
Today at Forensics, me and Suze went over by Greg (he was alone) and we talked about crossword puzzles. I saw his eyes keep flickering to me when Suze was talking. I kinda felt like he was mildly interested. Then I sat by him in my next round. We didn't talk. After that we went back over. We talked a little (he works at Rini-Rego's and is the fastest checker, he wants to be called 'Fast Greg' and he loves Nirvana). Then he and some guy left to find the capital of Fiji (a question in one of his puzzles) and he never came back. Me and Suze took this as a hint and left. We saw them at a table with a crowd of girls. Then during the Power Round (I didn't make it, but everyone could go watch) the only seat left was next to him. But he was engrossed in conversation with two pretty girls. After all that, as we were pulling out of Crestwood on our bus, I saw him and waved. He just smiled and nodded like a snob. Well, then!! I guess I'm not good enough for him!
Then tonight, me, Matt, Elicia, and Sharon cruised around. Elicia likes BOY (a little) and she said he said he'd meet us at Wedel's later. (with Drew, I think) Elicia said Drew was having trouble with Lauren, but I was only mildly interested. We went to McDonald's then to Wedel's. Justin came over and we all sat (well, I layed) on Matt's bed. I fell asleep.
Today in art we had Gummou again (the whole week). Then in 2nd period we worked on our MPV's. I had to go in for Mrs. Petrykowski to check my homework (that I missed cause of the cruise) and she let me do a few problems with Jenny Warchola (who was in for help). Look:
11+14=25, 14+10=24, 24+24=48, 25+25=50, 50+48=98ft.
The perimeter of the garden and the pathway is 98ft! TA-DA!
In 4th period gym, the boys on our volleyball team yelled and jumped in front of us. I touched the ball a couple times, too because Cory (the one man game) Chapman wasn't there.
5th period science we "played" with genecons and circuits. I had to take two quizzes for Mrs. Thompson in morning homeroom.
In 6th period Social Studies, YKW wasn't there. He was in 1st period art though. I didn't see him in first lunch either. We did our "what if we lost" Revolutionary War presentations. I made a poster for our group (Dione Wolfe, Kristen Groffner, Cheryl Boscerello) which brings me to last night. (We got our cruise pictures, went to a book store and went home).
7th period English we did our pre-test in spelling. I got to read the words to the class and I made up new sentences. For pryed, I said "The squirrel pryed open the acorn, but then Jack shot him." Everyone laughed because Jack Holmes hunts animals like squirrels and cats. We did a prompt writing exercise. The topic was, I just ran out of _______? I put air and wrote about someone who died scuba diving.
There's my day. 5 more months until summer vacation.
JANUARY 6th, 1994
GIRL and I brought our cameras to school. I got pictures of Brian Motsay, Keith Soloman, Ryan Rinaldo, Nick Neelis, etc.
BOY lent me the Les Miz book I've wanted forever.
JANUARY 6th, 1995
I tried out today and did great. So did Jason. He's definitely the Music Man. Katie says it's either her, me or Kim for Marion. I think it's her. I doubt I'll be Marion. I really doubt it. I'll find out if I made callbacks tomorrow.
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I made callbacks. Jason is definitely Harold and it's either me or Katie.
Katie and me and Jason were the last to go. Katie and him read, then me and him. I thought I did well. I changed energy levels well. Then Katie and I sang "Till There Was You" again.
JANUARY 6th, 1996
Last night - Elicia called just as my family ad I were going to Golden Corral (Tony, Paul and Ben's new workplace). She invited me to go to the wrestling match. I did. We met Julie there and all sat together. Then, we went to Parson's. Matt and Justin were all watching Dumb and Dumber. We borrowed Matt and Justin and went to Middleburg McDonald's then to Berea McDonald's (where we actually went in and ate). Then we all went back to Justin's and all laid on his bed and talked. Then we moved downstairs to watch Die Hard w/a Vengence. (Oh yeah, Sharon had since come over.) We were all having fun until...
Marc and BOY showed up. BOY sat by Sharon but slowly moved by me. Then, everyone but me and BOY went home. I felt nothing. I kept saying to myself - 'I don't want to date other people' and I do!
Today at Forensics, me and Suze went over by Greg (he was alone) and we talked about crossword puzzles. I saw his eyes keep flickering to me when Suze was talking. I kinda felt like he was mildly interested. Then I sat by him in my next round. We didn't talk. After that we went back over. We talked a little (he works at Rini-Rego's and is the fastest checker, he wants to be called 'Fast Greg' and he loves Nirvana). Then he and some guy left to find the capital of Fiji (a question in one of his puzzles) and he never came back. Me and Suze took this as a hint and left. We saw them at a table with a crowd of girls. Then during the Power Round (I didn't make it, but everyone could go watch) the only seat left was next to him. But he was engrossed in conversation with two pretty girls. After all that, as we were pulling out of Crestwood on our bus, I saw him and waved. He just smiled and nodded like a snob. Well, then!! I guess I'm not good enough for him!
Then tonight, me, Matt, Elicia, and Sharon cruised around. Elicia likes BOY (a little) and she said he said he'd meet us at Wedel's later. (with Drew, I think) Elicia said Drew was having trouble with Lauren, but I was only mildly interested. We went to McDonald's then to Wedel's. Justin came over and we all sat (well, I layed) on Matt's bed. I fell asleep.
January 5, 2011
JANUARY 5TH, 1993, 1994, 1996, 2002, 2003, 2007
JANUARY 5th, 1993
In 1st period art, I heard the boys at Y.K.W.'s table say (I think) Jessica K. I saw Y.K.W. looking at me for a long time, then shielding his face from me.
I remember I asked Laurie Patrick to ask Luke Swan out for me. I remember waiting for her after school. I remember meeting her for the first time in PSR.
JANUARY 5th, 1994
Mike K. asked BOY if he was going out with me. He said yes.
While I was waiting for the bus, BOY didn't come over to talk. But 4th period he personally handed me his note.
Ski Club was OK. I stayed with Kourtini and got my dark blue. Y.K.W. kept his distance. He got these awesome new skis. Greg was guarding them when Y.K.W. went to get a snack, I went over.
"Are those his skis?"
"Yep!"
"They're awesome, he doesn't deserve them," I mocked spit at them.
At 9:00 we (Michelle Magnone, Christine Miller, Kourtini and I) boarded the bus. A few minutes later YKW and Greg came on. I was taking pictures left and right. I got YKW's as he was walking passed my seat.
"What was that for?"
"America's Funniest Home Videos."
Upheals of laughter from the girls, but YKW just scoffed and moved on. He sat/stood in his seat with his back against the window, just staring into oblivion. Greg was behind him. I looked over.
"Jessica likes YKW!" Greg teased.
In unison, YKW and I gave him disgusted, annoyed stares that read "what?!"
On the way home I sat with Christine. We're becoming kind of friends. She's a pretty good skier for a beginner. Lindsay Phillips sat in the seat before YKW's. Katie Krakowiak sat with her. They talked to YKW and Greg all the way home. I was so jealous.
I think I still like YKW.
JANUARY 5th, 1996
BOY came in to Mrs. Bock's room before school while I was getting extra help to ask what work he missed. He smiled at me. After that he only smiled at me after band and kicked my foot while I was at my locker after 6th period. When I turned (a few seconds too late) to see who it was, he was turning around and missed me seeing him. He probably thinks I ignored him.
BOY flirted with me a little. That's cool. I guess. And BOY flirted with me a little in Golden Expressions. He kicked me, unzipped my bag and gave me pretty much his whole pop. I shoved him (gently) and he fell back on the risers. (I knew he would. That's the cool thing about risers. He wasn't hurt, though.)
I saw Drew a few times. He seemed kinda depressed. I know the feeling. I feel that I don't belong anywhere. The Homeys want Julie and Sharon, not me. I doubt the Homestead Drive gang wants me back. I don't fit in anywhere. Drew said (on the phone yesterday) that Dan Burke's coming over tonight. Maybe they'll call me. Other than that, I'm alone at home for the night.
JANUARY 5th, 2002
Not much new. I'm starting to make good money at Red Lobster. I still haven't gotten paid for my commercial, but my agent has kept in touch. Xmas with fam was fun. We had Xmas Eve + Xmas at our house. BOYFRIEND 3 and I are great. His birthday and our 5-month anniversary are coming up. He's been on break for three weeks, so we've both been just working, playing Nintendo and sleeping! No word from Cedar Point for either of us. I'm worried. No matter how I rationalize it, I'll be disappointed if I don't make it. I'm planning on working there too much.
JANUARY 5th, 2003
Yea!! I got cast in a Cedar Point-style cabaret show at an amazing club in downtown Cleveland called Pickwick and Frolic. Finally, I get to sing cool songs into a handheld mic, like Christina! I quit Red Lobster because Pickwick PAYS! I am officially a professional singer! And the two gay directors really like me (for some odd reason)!
Also, I've been emailing with a guy from a local TV show called "Last Call Cleveland" and he saw my webpage and said they'd be interested in working w/me. So I'm going to their show at Second City on the 13th. Too bad boys suck or I might be interested in him.
JANUARY 5TH, 2007
Money's really tight now. I seem to go in spurts of steady income, then no income. I'm frustrated because Lillie's buying a theatre, and has asked Sarah to manage and B.Unit to bartend. She hasn't asked me to do anything and that hurts doubly when I'm so poor. I really hope I can be involved. I need steady income so badly!
My agents haven't called in a long time, despite the Christmas break.
BOYFRIEND 4 is the same. I officially ended it over Christmas, but then kissed him a few days later. So not much has changed. Except that he's very aware of my crush on BOY and my intentions of pursuing it. I still secretly love BOYFRIEND 4, and always will, but I'm not waiting around. It's his move. Besides, nothing can even happen for years, so I want to see if maybe I could like someone else.
SONGS ON MY iPOD
I Don't Need a Man - Pussycat Dolls
Hayling - FC Kahuna
Lost Ones - Jay-Z
Irreplaceable - Beyonce
Everybody Got Their Something - Nikka Costa
Wind It Up - Gwen Stefani
Say It Right - Nelly Furtado
Love Me or Hate Me - Lady Sovereign
Baby Come Back - Vanessa Hudgens
Wait A Minute - Pussycat Dolls
Smack That - Akon
My Love - Justin Timberlake
Fergalicious - Fergie
Tell Me - Christina Aguilera and Diddy
We Ride - Rihanna
Long Way to Go - Cassie
In 1st period art, I heard the boys at Y.K.W.'s table say (I think) Jessica K. I saw Y.K.W. looking at me for a long time, then shielding his face from me.
I remember I asked Laurie Patrick to ask Luke Swan out for me. I remember waiting for her after school. I remember meeting her for the first time in PSR.
JANUARY 5th, 1994
Mike K. asked BOY if he was going out with me. He said yes.
While I was waiting for the bus, BOY didn't come over to talk. But 4th period he personally handed me his note.
Ski Club was OK. I stayed with Kourtini and got my dark blue. Y.K.W. kept his distance. He got these awesome new skis. Greg was guarding them when Y.K.W. went to get a snack, I went over.
"Are those his skis?"
"Yep!"
"They're awesome, he doesn't deserve them," I mocked spit at them.
At 9:00 we (Michelle Magnone, Christine Miller, Kourtini and I) boarded the bus. A few minutes later YKW and Greg came on. I was taking pictures left and right. I got YKW's as he was walking passed my seat.
"What was that for?"
"America's Funniest Home Videos."
Upheals of laughter from the girls, but YKW just scoffed and moved on. He sat/stood in his seat with his back against the window, just staring into oblivion. Greg was behind him. I looked over.
"Jessica likes YKW!" Greg teased.
In unison, YKW and I gave him disgusted, annoyed stares that read "what?!"
On the way home I sat with Christine. We're becoming kind of friends. She's a pretty good skier for a beginner. Lindsay Phillips sat in the seat before YKW's. Katie Krakowiak sat with her. They talked to YKW and Greg all the way home. I was so jealous.
I think I still like YKW.
JANUARY 5th, 1996
BOY came in to Mrs. Bock's room before school while I was getting extra help to ask what work he missed. He smiled at me. After that he only smiled at me after band and kicked my foot while I was at my locker after 6th period. When I turned (a few seconds too late) to see who it was, he was turning around and missed me seeing him. He probably thinks I ignored him.
BOY flirted with me a little. That's cool. I guess. And BOY flirted with me a little in Golden Expressions. He kicked me, unzipped my bag and gave me pretty much his whole pop. I shoved him (gently) and he fell back on the risers. (I knew he would. That's the cool thing about risers. He wasn't hurt, though.)
I saw Drew a few times. He seemed kinda depressed. I know the feeling. I feel that I don't belong anywhere. The Homeys want Julie and Sharon, not me. I doubt the Homestead Drive gang wants me back. I don't fit in anywhere. Drew said (on the phone yesterday) that Dan Burke's coming over tonight. Maybe they'll call me. Other than that, I'm alone at home for the night.
JANUARY 5th, 2002
Not much new. I'm starting to make good money at Red Lobster. I still haven't gotten paid for my commercial, but my agent has kept in touch. Xmas with fam was fun. We had Xmas Eve + Xmas at our house. BOYFRIEND 3 and I are great. His birthday and our 5-month anniversary are coming up. He's been on break for three weeks, so we've both been just working, playing Nintendo and sleeping! No word from Cedar Point for either of us. I'm worried. No matter how I rationalize it, I'll be disappointed if I don't make it. I'm planning on working there too much.
JANUARY 5th, 2003
Yea!! I got cast in a Cedar Point-style cabaret show at an amazing club in downtown Cleveland called Pickwick and Frolic. Finally, I get to sing cool songs into a handheld mic, like Christina! I quit Red Lobster because Pickwick PAYS! I am officially a professional singer! And the two gay directors really like me (for some odd reason)!
Also, I've been emailing with a guy from a local TV show called "Last Call Cleveland" and he saw my webpage and said they'd be interested in working w/me. So I'm going to their show at Second City on the 13th. Too bad boys suck or I might be interested in him.
JANUARY 5TH, 2007
Money's really tight now. I seem to go in spurts of steady income, then no income. I'm frustrated because Lillie's buying a theatre, and has asked Sarah to manage and B.Unit to bartend. She hasn't asked me to do anything and that hurts doubly when I'm so poor. I really hope I can be involved. I need steady income so badly!
My agents haven't called in a long time, despite the Christmas break.
BOYFRIEND 4 is the same. I officially ended it over Christmas, but then kissed him a few days later. So not much has changed. Except that he's very aware of my crush on BOY and my intentions of pursuing it. I still secretly love BOYFRIEND 4, and always will, but I'm not waiting around. It's his move. Besides, nothing can even happen for years, so I want to see if maybe I could like someone else.
SONGS ON MY iPOD
I Don't Need a Man - Pussycat Dolls
Hayling - FC Kahuna
Lost Ones - Jay-Z
Irreplaceable - Beyonce
Everybody Got Their Something - Nikka Costa
Wind It Up - Gwen Stefani
Say It Right - Nelly Furtado
Love Me or Hate Me - Lady Sovereign
Baby Come Back - Vanessa Hudgens
Wait A Minute - Pussycat Dolls
Smack That - Akon
My Love - Justin Timberlake
Fergalicious - Fergie
Tell Me - Christina Aguilera and Diddy
We Ride - Rihanna
Long Way to Go - Cassie
January 3, 2011
JANUARY 4th, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 1999, 2004
JANUARY 4th, 1993
Today, school resumed. I gave Mrs. Thompson and Mr. Schellentrager their gifts.
I think Y.K.W. likes Jessi Prest. I thought I heard (in 1st period art) Scott Chrise say Jessica! He likes you! And Y.K.W. said I do not!! sigh.
Holly G. made me a Aladdin, Monty Python, and Steve Wright tape. I like it better than my old Ali tape.
In art (Mrs. Gummou subbed) we are making masks. I'm making a Hawwiian evil dolphin named Kiko who punishes my enemies.
JANUARY 4th, 1994
Holly Stone told me that BOY said we were kinda going out. Lisa Hoffmann said when she asked him, he said yes.
Marc said Mike Klamut might beat up BOY because he thinks his girlfriend Sarah might like BOY. BOY knows nothing about any of this.
He was absent yesterday because he was at a funeral, his Gramma.
JANUARY 4th, 1995
I watched auditions today. GIRL was terrible, but you never know. Katie was good. She'd make a good Mrs. Paroo, too, so maybe I will get Marion maybe.
Matt was talking to Heinrich (who was watching too) and asked him if he liked my hair short or long. He said he likes it better now. Maybe he doesn't hate me.
JANUARY 4th, 1996
Yesterday was a snow day so Sharon came over then we went to McDonald's and Walmart with Julie and took a tag off the new line of Richard Simmons clothes. It was fun. Then at home, I called Chris (I had a message that he called) and we talked for an hour or two.
Today was depressing and I can't pinpoint why. It may be that BOY obviously likes Julie, or that I can't figure out what to do about Chris, or the fact that I might not be able to do Brigadoon. We had a Masquers meeting today. We talked about Thespians (a new club we're joining (it's national)) and Brigadoon.
Well, I guess I'll go call Chris.
Oh yeah - Drew just called me and agreed to do the Talent Show with me (a band singing "What's Up?"
JANUARY 4th, 1999
My first day off since...a week ago? Work has been long, boring, and hard on my knees. I have taken to lying around watching TV and lifting weights in my free time.
Only four more days until I'm back in BG! I got my grades back and I'm in good shape. I have a 3.37 and am a junior now. I can't wait to go back. This week, I have my Cedar Point audition, then work on Thurs. and Sat., then leave Sat. night!
JANUARY 4th, 2004
Things just got a lot worse. Or a lot better. I don't know.
BOYFRIEND 4 has been so great these last few days. He came out with the fam and I to Pizza Hut and to see "Elf" again on Friday. He calls all the time. He's almost like a real boyfriend.
Then today. I went over BOY's and recorded a few songs for my demo. BOYFRIEND 4 joined us and we all went to Angelo's Pizza. I hinted that I should stop by his house for a minute before I went to work. So we got comfy on his bed for awhile. I gave him his late Xmas present, a Homestar Runner tee shirt.
He kept saying we have a problem. He was at fault for letting himself fall for me. But I totally wasn't expecting him to say this:
"I probably shouldn't say this right now. It's mean of me to say it before you leave. But I'm pretty sure I love you."
Holy shit. Of course I said I love you too. I can't believe he really said that. I almost didn't believe. He went on to say he hadn't said that to anyone in 2 years. I was completely shocked. He was pretty quiet.
I'm in denial. I have to move. We're not going to be together.
Today, school resumed. I gave Mrs. Thompson and Mr. Schellentrager their gifts.
I think Y.K.W. likes Jessi Prest. I thought I heard (in 1st period art) Scott Chrise say Jessica! He likes you! And Y.K.W. said I do not!! sigh.
Holly G. made me a Aladdin, Monty Python, and Steve Wright tape. I like it better than my old Ali tape.
In art (Mrs. Gummou subbed) we are making masks. I'm making a Hawwiian evil dolphin named Kiko who punishes my enemies.
JANUARY 4th, 1994
Holly Stone told me that BOY said we were kinda going out. Lisa Hoffmann said when she asked him, he said yes.
Marc said Mike Klamut might beat up BOY because he thinks his girlfriend Sarah might like BOY. BOY knows nothing about any of this.
He was absent yesterday because he was at a funeral, his Gramma.
JANUARY 4th, 1995
I watched auditions today. GIRL was terrible, but you never know. Katie was good. She'd make a good Mrs. Paroo, too, so maybe I will get Marion maybe.
Matt was talking to Heinrich (who was watching too) and asked him if he liked my hair short or long. He said he likes it better now. Maybe he doesn't hate me.
JANUARY 4th, 1996
Yesterday was a snow day so Sharon came over then we went to McDonald's and Walmart with Julie and took a tag off the new line of Richard Simmons clothes. It was fun. Then at home, I called Chris (I had a message that he called) and we talked for an hour or two.
Today was depressing and I can't pinpoint why. It may be that BOY obviously likes Julie, or that I can't figure out what to do about Chris, or the fact that I might not be able to do Brigadoon. We had a Masquers meeting today. We talked about Thespians (a new club we're joining (it's national)) and Brigadoon.
Well, I guess I'll go call Chris.
Oh yeah - Drew just called me and agreed to do the Talent Show with me (a band singing "What's Up?"
JANUARY 4th, 1999
My first day off since...a week ago? Work has been long, boring, and hard on my knees. I have taken to lying around watching TV and lifting weights in my free time.
Only four more days until I'm back in BG! I got my grades back and I'm in good shape. I have a 3.37 and am a junior now. I can't wait to go back. This week, I have my Cedar Point audition, then work on Thurs. and Sat., then leave Sat. night!
JANUARY 4th, 2004
Things just got a lot worse. Or a lot better. I don't know.
BOYFRIEND 4 has been so great these last few days. He came out with the fam and I to Pizza Hut and to see "Elf" again on Friday. He calls all the time. He's almost like a real boyfriend.
Then today. I went over BOY's and recorded a few songs for my demo. BOYFRIEND 4 joined us and we all went to Angelo's Pizza. I hinted that I should stop by his house for a minute before I went to work. So we got comfy on his bed for awhile. I gave him his late Xmas present, a Homestar Runner tee shirt.
He kept saying we have a problem. He was at fault for letting himself fall for me. But I totally wasn't expecting him to say this:
"I probably shouldn't say this right now. It's mean of me to say it before you leave. But I'm pretty sure I love you."
Holy shit. Of course I said I love you too. I can't believe he really said that. I almost didn't believe. He went on to say he hadn't said that to anyone in 2 years. I was completely shocked. He was pretty quiet.
I'm in denial. I have to move. We're not going to be together.
JANUARY 3rd, 1994, 1995
JANUARY 3rd, 1994
School was OK, but BOY was absent. Ski Club starts this Weds.
I missed BOY.
I got Mrs. Hecker to make a tape of "On My Own" so I can tryout for the talent show. I need a real accompanyest if I make it.
JANUARY 3rd, 1995
Heinrich is trying out for the Music Man! And everyone says I'll be Marion. Wouldn't that be interesting if he was Harold and I was Marion...
Anyway. Tryouts are tomorrow and Thursday. I can't wait!
7th period I talked to Dan like old times.
School was OK, but BOY was absent. Ski Club starts this Weds.
I missed BOY.
I got Mrs. Hecker to make a tape of "On My Own" so I can tryout for the talent show. I need a real accompanyest if I make it.
JANUARY 3rd, 1995
Heinrich is trying out for the Music Man! And everyone says I'll be Marion. Wouldn't that be interesting if he was Harold and I was Marion...
Anyway. Tryouts are tomorrow and Thursday. I can't wait!
7th period I talked to Dan like old times.
January 2, 2011
JANUARY 2, 1993, 1994, 1995, 1997
JANUARY 2nd, 1993
Saturday. 1 more day till school. Sigh. Is it an A or B day? Sigh.
Today we MAY go see Aladdin with the movie money Aimee got us.
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We saw Aladdin (me and Kath) and I liked it as much as the first time. Mom and Dad saw A Few Good Men and it ran late so Kath and I decided to play video games in the lobby. I spotted Lindsay Phillips. I looked at a plaque on the wall hoping she'd notice me first (this way if they don't notice (or don't want to) I don't notice them). She did and ran to me arms out wide exclaiming "Jess!" I didn't know if it was a joke so I stood still. She hugged me so I hugged back. She asked how Florida was and that she got my postcard. At the "arcade" we saw Carrie Anderson. Lindsay asked what movie I'd seen. I said Aladdin. She said me to, her 3rd time. I said my 2nd. Then they proceeded to tell me about last night (when Lindsay had slept over Carrie's), how Carrie's little brother had thrown a Sprite-filled cup the thought was empty in his own face. When I didn't laugh to hard, Lindsay asked what was wrong. I said nothing. Apparently she likes me better than I thought she did.
JANUARY 2nd, 1994
Took GIRL home and took Kath to Baton. Pom-Pom starts again soon. Next week, I think. Another year. Ski Club should start anyday now. I get to use my own (Aunt Vicki's) skis. School (stress) tomorrow. Sigh.
JANUARY 2nd, 1995
I spoke to Jason Ribs (kinda). He said "Is Tiffany Gates arrogant?" I said, "YES!" (Corey wasn't there.) "She's everything bad!" He was listening in on Amy Church and me. During Senior Choir, he slept at my feet (by Claire and Brian Hoke) and heard (I'm sure) me and Jenni talking. (We didn't say anything special.)
Today half the school was absent. (It's actually a holiday) I talked to Dan in 7th period, he seems back to normal. He promised to take me to Chicago in the year 2010.
Today I caught BOY's eye a few times. When Holly S. patted me on the arm, he said "Hey, don't touch her there!" I feel something weird with him. Maybe...YEAH RIGHT!
JANUARY 2nd, 1997
Holy changes in my life!
1) Me, Katie and Julie went to Phil Navratil's (of Chuck E. Cheese fame) party where there was lots of drinking. But Scott was there and his flirting gets more sincere every time I see him.
2) Chris and I have been thinking about taking a break and today we decided that when he leaves, we'll do so.
3) Me and Sharon spent New Year's Eve and Don Debiase's party. The weirdest thing happened. The second I walked in, I had BOY's undivided attention. And the flirting wasn't eased into, it was head first! He left for another party, but not before holding my hand firmly as he said good-bye to everyone. Then he squeezed it and left. I've spent the last few days wondering WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!
4) I got a second job - at Lone Star. Me and Sharon (who went as far as making out w/BOY) are hoping to go out with them on Friday because BOY leaves for the army on Saturday.
Saturday. 1 more day till school. Sigh. Is it an A or B day? Sigh.
Today we MAY go see Aladdin with the movie money Aimee got us.
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We saw Aladdin (me and Kath) and I liked it as much as the first time. Mom and Dad saw A Few Good Men and it ran late so Kath and I decided to play video games in the lobby. I spotted Lindsay Phillips. I looked at a plaque on the wall hoping she'd notice me first (this way if they don't notice (or don't want to) I don't notice them). She did and ran to me arms out wide exclaiming "Jess!" I didn't know if it was a joke so I stood still. She hugged me so I hugged back. She asked how Florida was and that she got my postcard. At the "arcade" we saw Carrie Anderson. Lindsay asked what movie I'd seen. I said Aladdin. She said me to, her 3rd time. I said my 2nd. Then they proceeded to tell me about last night (when Lindsay had slept over Carrie's), how Carrie's little brother had thrown a Sprite-filled cup the thought was empty in his own face. When I didn't laugh to hard, Lindsay asked what was wrong. I said nothing. Apparently she likes me better than I thought she did.
JANUARY 2nd, 1994
Took GIRL home and took Kath to Baton. Pom-Pom starts again soon. Next week, I think. Another year. Ski Club should start anyday now. I get to use my own (Aunt Vicki's) skis. School (stress) tomorrow. Sigh.
JANUARY 2nd, 1995
I spoke to Jason Ribs (kinda). He said "Is Tiffany Gates arrogant?" I said, "YES!" (Corey wasn't there.) "She's everything bad!" He was listening in on Amy Church and me. During Senior Choir, he slept at my feet (by Claire and Brian Hoke) and heard (I'm sure) me and Jenni talking. (We didn't say anything special.)
Today half the school was absent. (It's actually a holiday) I talked to Dan in 7th period, he seems back to normal. He promised to take me to Chicago in the year 2010.
Today I caught BOY's eye a few times. When Holly S. patted me on the arm, he said "Hey, don't touch her there!" I feel something weird with him. Maybe...YEAH RIGHT!
JANUARY 2nd, 1997
Holy changes in my life!
1) Me, Katie and Julie went to Phil Navratil's (of Chuck E. Cheese fame) party where there was lots of drinking. But Scott was there and his flirting gets more sincere every time I see him.
2) Chris and I have been thinking about taking a break and today we decided that when he leaves, we'll do so.
3) Me and Sharon spent New Year's Eve and Don Debiase's party. The weirdest thing happened. The second I walked in, I had BOY's undivided attention. And the flirting wasn't eased into, it was head first! He left for another party, but not before holding my hand firmly as he said good-bye to everyone. Then he squeezed it and left. I've spent the last few days wondering WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!
4) I got a second job - at Lone Star. Me and Sharon (who went as far as making out w/BOY) are hoping to go out with them on Friday because BOY leaves for the army on Saturday.
January 1, 2011
JANUARY 1st 1993, 1994, 1995
JANUARY 1st, 1993
New Year's Day. Kelly, Cheryl, and Rick came over. We played Where in the world is Carmen Sandiago? and Super Mario World on GameBoy. I saw an ad on TV for a video game I REALLY want. Problem is it's for Sega. It's a dolphin game, to! The first in history had to be a Sega! It's called Ecco the Dolphin. Maybe Holly G.'ll by it. Then we went to Kathy Anns (mom's cousin) there were so many kids and so much smoke! I watched Beauty and the Beast downstairs (honestly, what do people see in that movie? It's boring! I like Aladdin) and upstairs I watched one of my favorites, Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead.
JANUARY 1st, 1994
Last night I talked w/GIRL till past midnight. When I got on, it was 1993, when I got off, it was 94.
We went to Cousin Kelly's. We played "Dream Phone" "Slumber Party" "Mall Madness" "Saved by the Bell" and "Ask Zandar".
GIRL is going to sleepover tonight. We have to talk to BOY. About the talent show. It's going to be hard, but I have to think of myself, to.
When we were over GIRL's, I was always trying to get BOY to hold little Kara. At first, he said no, she'll pee, and just joked. But later, when he saw how much I liked the baby, he started playing with her and talking baby talk. Before Kara's naptime, she gave us all little kisses. When she kissed BOY's cheek it was so cute. He was kinda embarassed.
When we watched my scene in The Good Doctor, GIRL sobbed over BOY while BOY threw cookies at me. So I jumped on his lap and stuffed one down his shirt. I hit his head accidentally. So when he complained of pain I knew wasn't there, I patted him and said, "Aww!"
I know he likes me, the next step is to get him to either A) ask me out B) kiss me C) both. Preferably C). Maybe I SHOULD make the first move like GIRL says. Like when he tells me how I don't like to be touched, I can just go and kiss him to prove him wrong. Sigh.
If BOY and I ever get our "relationship" off the ground, how long will it last? Ben said he went out with Lisa Sanford last year and they didn't do anything.
GIRL came over and we called BOY. He was disappointed about "In My Life" because we'd practiced a lot for it. It feels so much better.
GIRL was mad at BOY for throwing stuff out the window. We pretended I was out of the room and GIRL talked to BOY.
"So what do you want to know about Jessica?"
"What do you mean?"
"Her favorite color, that stuff."
"Why would I want to know anything?"
"Well if you like her - you do like her, don't you?"
"I don't think that's any of your business."
"OK."
What does it mean?! BOY asked if GIRL got me a Les Miz book yet. I decide if I hint enough, he'll get it for me. He also kept playing "And I can live inside my...head" over and over again on his CD. It's his favorite part from "On My Own." The music I got doesn't include it.
JANUARY 1, 1995
She did remember (Holly) but I'd already made plans so we planned it for today.
On Friday I saw Corey's play at Greenbriar "Meet Me in St. Louis". I heard about tryouts there for The Secret Garden.
By the way, Matt and Aunt Kathleen are gone and school is tomorrow. :(
New Year's Day. Kelly, Cheryl, and Rick came over. We played Where in the world is Carmen Sandiago? and Super Mario World on GameBoy. I saw an ad on TV for a video game I REALLY want. Problem is it's for Sega. It's a dolphin game, to! The first in history had to be a Sega! It's called Ecco the Dolphin. Maybe Holly G.'ll by it. Then we went to Kathy Anns (mom's cousin) there were so many kids and so much smoke! I watched Beauty and the Beast downstairs (honestly, what do people see in that movie? It's boring! I like Aladdin) and upstairs I watched one of my favorites, Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead.
JANUARY 1st, 1994
Last night I talked w/GIRL till past midnight. When I got on, it was 1993, when I got off, it was 94.
We went to Cousin Kelly's. We played "Dream Phone" "Slumber Party" "Mall Madness" "Saved by the Bell" and "Ask Zandar".
GIRL is going to sleepover tonight. We have to talk to BOY. About the talent show. It's going to be hard, but I have to think of myself, to.
When we were over GIRL's, I was always trying to get BOY to hold little Kara. At first, he said no, she'll pee, and just joked. But later, when he saw how much I liked the baby, he started playing with her and talking baby talk. Before Kara's naptime, she gave us all little kisses. When she kissed BOY's cheek it was so cute. He was kinda embarassed.
When we watched my scene in The Good Doctor, GIRL sobbed over BOY while BOY threw cookies at me. So I jumped on his lap and stuffed one down his shirt. I hit his head accidentally. So when he complained of pain I knew wasn't there, I patted him and said, "Aww!"
I know he likes me, the next step is to get him to either A) ask me out B) kiss me C) both. Preferably C). Maybe I SHOULD make the first move like GIRL says. Like when he tells me how I don't like to be touched, I can just go and kiss him to prove him wrong. Sigh.
If BOY and I ever get our "relationship" off the ground, how long will it last? Ben said he went out with Lisa Sanford last year and they didn't do anything.
GIRL came over and we called BOY. He was disappointed about "In My Life" because we'd practiced a lot for it. It feels so much better.
GIRL was mad at BOY for throwing stuff out the window. We pretended I was out of the room and GIRL talked to BOY.
"So what do you want to know about Jessica?"
"What do you mean?"
"Her favorite color, that stuff."
"Why would I want to know anything?"
"Well if you like her - you do like her, don't you?"
"I don't think that's any of your business."
"OK."
What does it mean?! BOY asked if GIRL got me a Les Miz book yet. I decide if I hint enough, he'll get it for me. He also kept playing "And I can live inside my...head" over and over again on his CD. It's his favorite part from "On My Own." The music I got doesn't include it.
JANUARY 1, 1995
She did remember (Holly) but I'd already made plans so we planned it for today.
On Friday I saw Corey's play at Greenbriar "Meet Me in St. Louis". I heard about tryouts there for The Secret Garden.
By the way, Matt and Aunt Kathleen are gone and school is tomorrow. :(
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